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time flies. this year at times seemed like it would drag on forever, but now that summer is nearly upon me (less than two days!) i cant believe the speed with which it came and went. things now are a lot different than the way they were this time last year, or, whats more on my mind, the way things were when i started earlham. there have been serious, serious lows this year, starting with the earlham catastrophe, but i think that now i have reached a goodness that is significantly higher, more real, and more tangible than ever before in my life. at the moment the goodness is bittersweet due to the graduation of my favorite 22 year old, but it will be alright and field trips will be taken both ways, to galesburg and to bloomfield hills, and its all going to work out, im incredibly certain.
its sad how things change sometimes, and its wierd because i generally hate change, but this year has changed me and my life in a whole lot of ways, and i think that its all been worth it ultimately, even if the process was painful. not that i would ever go back and do it all over again, because seriously, i wouldnt, it would kill me.
speaking of painful processes of change, i saw patrick yesterday, he stopped by to return the diamond age. i am so glad jon and erin were there too. i am pretty sure that will be the last time i see him until possibly 2007, when i return from spain in the spring. which is kind of nice.
erin and my art final was today, it was alright (i think). im pretty sure i got a high b or a low a, which would hopefully mean an a in the class, which would be really nice. after the final i went to work on packing. i wasnt planning on doing everything, but rather leaving some for tomorrow, but i ended up not even noticing the time as it passes, and here i am, surrounded by suitcases and boxes, posters down, ready to move out as soon as my parents get here on wednesday. its good to be all packed, because it leaves tomorrow completely free for spanish.
also tomorrow, erin leaves. i am sad. i will have to go almost a full 24 hours without her at kzoo, and then the summer starts, and who am i going to tell every single detail of my life to, and listen to them as they do the same? i love our routines, i think it will be one of my favorite things when i look back at college, becoming an old woman with erin.
i should try to not let it bother me/worry me/stress me out to listen to people go on about girls whose names start with c, and how much they dont like them, how much they were screwed over etc, while i sit and wonder just why it is that they still care so much, even now. ultimately, its not even an issue (a nonissue, if you will), because i know where his feelings lie, and i know that its not something big dealish in his life, its just something that comes up, almost never. so, yeah. now im rambling but have determined not to care.
i am incredibly stuffed full of good indian food right now. i cannot wait for korean, sy thai, coney islands, rays icecream, marenellis, andiamos, mountain king, pita cafe, brooklyn pizza, cheerios, and bourbon chicken at somerset. not to mention the whitney, this thursday.
anyways. i have avoided studying long enough.
ps-im home for good on sunday, call me if you want to hang out, because you know i want to see you.
pps- congratulations class of 2005 (a little late i know, and im sorry)!!!!!!! im sad i couldnt go to graduation, damn art final monday morning.
its sad how things change sometimes, and its wierd because i generally hate change, but this year has changed me and my life in a whole lot of ways, and i think that its all been worth it ultimately, even if the process was painful. not that i would ever go back and do it all over again, because seriously, i wouldnt, it would kill me.
speaking of painful processes of change, i saw patrick yesterday, he stopped by to return the diamond age. i am so glad jon and erin were there too. i am pretty sure that will be the last time i see him until possibly 2007, when i return from spain in the spring. which is kind of nice.
erin and my art final was today, it was alright (i think). im pretty sure i got a high b or a low a, which would hopefully mean an a in the class, which would be really nice. after the final i went to work on packing. i wasnt planning on doing everything, but rather leaving some for tomorrow, but i ended up not even noticing the time as it passes, and here i am, surrounded by suitcases and boxes, posters down, ready to move out as soon as my parents get here on wednesday. its good to be all packed, because it leaves tomorrow completely free for spanish.
also tomorrow, erin leaves. i am sad. i will have to go almost a full 24 hours without her at kzoo, and then the summer starts, and who am i going to tell every single detail of my life to, and listen to them as they do the same? i love our routines, i think it will be one of my favorite things when i look back at college, becoming an old woman with erin.
i should try to not let it bother me/worry me/stress me out to listen to people go on about girls whose names start with c, and how much they dont like them, how much they were screwed over etc, while i sit and wonder just why it is that they still care so much, even now. ultimately, its not even an issue (a nonissue, if you will), because i know where his feelings lie, and i know that its not something big dealish in his life, its just something that comes up, almost never. so, yeah. now im rambling but have determined not to care.
i am incredibly stuffed full of good indian food right now. i cannot wait for korean, sy thai, coney islands, rays icecream, marenellis, andiamos, mountain king, pita cafe, brooklyn pizza, cheerios, and bourbon chicken at somerset. not to mention the whitney, this thursday.
anyways. i have avoided studying long enough.
ps-im home for good on sunday, call me if you want to hang out, because you know i want to see you.
pps- congratulations class of 2005 (a little late i know, and im sorry)!!!!!!! im sad i couldnt go to graduation, damn art final monday morning.