Ugh...
I think I totally just blew some aspects of my Children of Abraham Exam. I completely inaccurately identified a quote - though I did explain it correctly. And my essay was significantly less than well organized. It was spotty and weird - but long. Here's to crossing our fingers that I didn't totally cock it up. *crosses fingers* On the plus side I know I got 2 of the 3 bonus questions. Woot.
There really is no other news since the last 3 days have been all studying all the time. Well unless you want to count having to spend 3 hours enclosed in the same room with big-blonde-2nd-job-guy from this post. That was interesting. He maintained serious eye contact with me for ridiculously long periods of time. Like I was painfully uncomfortable, periods of time. And when he'd come by our group he'd stand really close to me. There wasn't any malice or anything related to it, he's just up front like that, but it made me want to squirm in my chair and run away from my own thoughts. And fyi - he has a great ass, I notice these things. *sigh*. He was leading our training session so it was all on the up and up and there were a bunch of other people in there with us who he may have been acting the same way with - I was trying really hard not to notice him or look at him when I could find a good distratction so I didn't have to. Avoidance is definitely my preferred method of dealing with men lately. And Christ is he really young - 23 to my 31 (turning 32 in a month). Weirdly with people like Megan, that doesn't seem huge but with this kid, seems like a HUGE difference.
Anyway - enough of that train of thought.
I'm feeling like I need to dial myself back. Let me see if I can explain. When I'm being 100% truly wholy myself I'm a little out of control. I get excited and I'm loud and well most people can't handle it (this has been my experience anyway). I get strange looks and people tend to ask me what's wrong with me. Anyway - I've been feeling a little like that lately. Like the shell or wall or whatever I put up around all of myself to keep me contained is cracking and leaking - not unlike the join between the pipe in a pipe on Prison Break this last episode when the water started rushing back in. And I'm a little afraid of letting it ALL hang out, because ALL of me is definitely not acceptable to the rest of society. And people wonder why I want to go be a hermit. HELLO! If there's noone there but me then there's noone to be annoyed by me or find me weird. Excellent solution. Woot.
Anyway, I should work. I have a ton to catch up on since I've been slacking in preparation for this test.
There really is no other news since the last 3 days have been all studying all the time. Well unless you want to count having to spend 3 hours enclosed in the same room with big-blonde-2nd-job-guy from this post. That was interesting. He maintained serious eye contact with me for ridiculously long periods of time. Like I was painfully uncomfortable, periods of time. And when he'd come by our group he'd stand really close to me. There wasn't any malice or anything related to it, he's just up front like that, but it made me want to squirm in my chair and run away from my own thoughts. And fyi - he has a great ass, I notice these things. *sigh*. He was leading our training session so it was all on the up and up and there were a bunch of other people in there with us who he may have been acting the same way with - I was trying really hard not to notice him or look at him when I could find a good distratction so I didn't have to. Avoidance is definitely my preferred method of dealing with men lately. And Christ is he really young - 23 to my 31 (turning 32 in a month). Weirdly with people like Megan, that doesn't seem huge but with this kid, seems like a HUGE difference.
Anyway - enough of that train of thought.
I'm feeling like I need to dial myself back. Let me see if I can explain. When I'm being 100% truly wholy myself I'm a little out of control. I get excited and I'm loud and well most people can't handle it (this has been my experience anyway). I get strange looks and people tend to ask me what's wrong with me. Anyway - I've been feeling a little like that lately. Like the shell or wall or whatever I put up around all of myself to keep me contained is cracking and leaking - not unlike the join between the pipe in a pipe on Prison Break this last episode when the water started rushing back in. And I'm a little afraid of letting it ALL hang out, because ALL of me is definitely not acceptable to the rest of society. And people wonder why I want to go be a hermit. HELLO! If there's noone there but me then there's noone to be annoyed by me or find me weird. Excellent solution. Woot.
Anyway, I should work. I have a ton to catch up on since I've been slacking in preparation for this test.