( ._. )
Founder of Johnny & Associates, Kitagawa Johnny passed away at the age of 87 on July 9 at 4.47 pm JST.
When I first read the news, I was shocked.
"Oh my god the president's dead..." that's what I said out loud and my sister beside me thought I meant the US president (・・;) bad mistake on my part...
But all I could think of was Hey! Say! JUMP.
How are the boys handling it... where are they now... are they together or did they have separate jobs today... will Keito come home...
I know, selfish thoughts on my part, sorry. It's just, HSJ has been my main for so long. This October would mark my ninth year. And after all those times, with Johnny-san constantly in the background, suddenly he's gone. My thoughts will always go towards Jump.
The tears came later. Tears brought on by the heartfelt messages the boys gave. They grieve and I grieved with them. They're sad and I'm sad with them. They all have special memories with this man, the person who handpicked them, grouped them, and gave them the name Hey! Say! JUMP. They all have their own personal stories. I chose to focus on that, them. Though it seems Keito didn't come back...? He must be really busy...
It would be a lie to say I don't know about the past. Nine years with Jump doesn't mean I am ignorant although I know I appear that way sometimes. I know of my tendency to avoid conflicts and negatives. But I'm with Jump precisely because I've drowned in my own negative thinking, and Jump somewhat saved me all those years ago.
But I wish people would be considerate for once. The boys are in mourning, they've lost someone who was like family to them, please save the negatives and arguments and the past for another day. Of course no such luck, but I am determined to ignore them.
I've been thinking though. Do these people know the whole truth? Were they part of the investigation? But then again, they can think and hate all they want. I don't have to. I suppose I just don't want to purposely see it.
I don't think anyone will ever know the whole truth. Just like how no one knows everything about anyone, ever. People are naturally secretive, there are parts they hide even from the closest person to them. We all have secrets.
For me, the case is inconsequential because I chose to follow Jump and to be happy. I'm not involved and I will likely never even meet any of the involved party. To foster hatred towards people I will never meet is absurd, and even more, to have feelings opposite of how Jump, the boys I follow, are feeling, is unpleasant and that is far from why I followed Jump in the first place. I want to be happy, I want to associate positivity with Jump, and so forgive me if I chose not to breed negativity in my happy place that is Jump. I've got enough negatives in my real life, let me have this tiny corner of happiness to distract myself. I do want to think the best of people, whoever they are, and I am trying.
I do hope that the victims get justice, and my faith taught me that they will. But again, that's for them. I have to remember I am an outsider and I'm not involved.
Something I couldn't quite ignore though... some people say that the boys HAVE TO say good things because he's their employer, and that is just plain rude.
It's like these people never listen to the boys at all, and that's really... sad. I am sad that the boys weren't heard. I'm sorry Jump. Sometimes I am also guilty of not listening properly. I will try my best. But I might get things wrong too sometimes.
Today (or rather yesterday) 12 July is the funeral. The funeral that they say is for close friends and family members... family members that include the groups, which also mean including Hey! Say! JUMP, and the juniors. I've always liked how JFC doesn't stand for Johnny's Fan Club, but FAMILY Club.
Goodbye, Johnny-san. Thank you for debuting Hey! Say! JUMP so that I could find them. As long as I am able, I will stay with them.