Doctor
I am not a happy bunny this morning. Yesterday I woke up with fierce stings in my chest and whenever I moved or took a breath it hurt. Two days before I had a horrible headache which rendered me almost lame. So I want to go see my doctor, though I know he'll probably say; stress.
I got up early this morning to call him, at 8, because the place starts to fill at 7.30 usually and expected an assistant to make me an appointment. But it got transferred to himself and he was his usual 'charming' self again. Basically what he said is "I'm late, just getting in the car, call back at 9, one always has to call between 9 and 11, I thought patients would know this after all these years, but obviously some still don't!"
So I put down the phone and started crying my eyes out. He always makes me feel like a nagging person, always in the way, always there just 'complaining'. But it's not like I come there often. I don't feel taken seriously at all. I want to switch doctors. This was the final straw.
I know he doesn't instantly know ho he has on the phone, but I am suffering from depression and I can't take it when people are that brutal with me. This morning he made me feel like I was annoying him by calling at that time, so I asked my mum to make an appointment for me, because I couldn't face to call him again. I don't really want to go to him now anymore, but I have no other choice. Switching doctors takes time.
I know which one I want. It's a woman I went to once when my own doctor was on holiday. His place is stark and dark looking, old-fashioned, grim. Her place was nicer, light, she was friendly, she's a woman and there were kid's toys, so it made the place look alot more open and welcoming. I want her. But I don't know if she has place for me...
I hope she does...
Mum just called, I can go this afternoon. He apologised for being a bit moody this morning, so I'll have to see. But meanwhile I am crying again. This is so not a good morning for me. Maybe it's just hormones... I don't know... All I know is that there's apparently little I can take today...