Blowing Away The Cold [Aoi/ Uruha]
Title: Blowing Away The Cold
Author: anknick
Pairing: Aoi/ Uruha [Yuu/ Kouyou]
Genre: AU, Humor, Fluff, Romance
Rating: NC-17
Warning: Derp!Uruha, Crackish, Kouyou's POV, Sex, badly written porn XD
Disclaimer: If i could own these two awesome people, i would have died by now. What i mean is, all i own is the weird plot.
Summary: Kouyou, 16 yrs old, is a student who shares an apartment with a 28 yrs old college professor, Yuu. What happens when Kouyou has feelings for the older man and can't summon up the courage to confront him about it? Yuu's certain actions leave Kouyou puzzled as to what are the other's intentions...
Comments: Ah... This idea was bouncing around in my head for a quite a time no, so i decided to give it a try. i am not good at writing porn or fics, for that matter. But I tried, and i hope you like it! :)
“Shut the fucking window, Kou-chan!!!”
Contradicting, isn’t it? Swearing and using “chan” in the same sentence? Well, that’s just my cute, adorable, workaholic, raven haired with deep obsidian eyes (trust me, you can easily get lost into) and socially awkward roommate, Yuu, for whom I definitely don’t have the hots for. Oh, I’m such a bad case of hopelessness, aren’t I? Maybe it’s an infatuation, which has lasted for more than a year now…? Okay, I will term it as a crush. That’s it. No going further than that.
“Are you listening to me?!” His usual baritone, now an octave high, floated through the living room into my bedroom where I was standing waiting for the sun to set. I’m usually not this sappy, but it was the first time in months I got to leave early from my prep class and I wanted to burn the scene into my mind till it is refreshed again.
“In a minute, Yuu-kun,” I called back, “the sun has just almost reached the horizon.”
A silence followed this and I could imagine him rolling his eyes, but he didn’t say anything after that.
So, like I was saying before, don’t get the wrong idea, he’s a really nice guy. And I’m not biased at all. Really. This was my opinion of him the very first time we met, in Café Kimochi, where I work part time. I was serving a big group of college students celebrating the loss of one of theirs virginity and I was struggling to keep up with the amount of order that was flowing in. I was about to drop a scalding bowl of French onion soup on some random person’s head, when Yuu helped me stabilize myself and saved me from being cut off from my only source of income. I still remember how grateful I was and how I insisted that he accept the cappuccino as a token of thanks. In the end, I got yelled off by the manager for it but things could have been worse.
Since then, he was a regular customer at the café and we would chat. I came to know about him. A lot. All the information gathered stealthily and discreetly little by little, without him knowing that I was actually interrogating him. Curiosity. That’s all it was. And when a few months later, he told me he was in urgent need of someone to share the expenses of his apartment with, I jumped at the offer. Literally too, he eyed me really suspiciously then. Psychology professor instincts maybe. I suppose he’s really-
“Isn’t it already dark outside?” His deep voice, right beside my ear, with his hot breath fanning over my wind blown neck, sent shivers down my spine.
“I…uh…” I struggled with speech, as he danced his fingers over my arm and stood close behind me.
When did he come up to me? I didn’t hear him at all. Okay, I was a little pre-occupied with thoughts of him, but still!
My heartbeat was rising by the minute and I could feel the hard muscles of his abdomen, pressing onto my back. Maybe, a hard something else? Oh, that just couldn’t be!
Shut the fuck up, imaginative brain!
But he was breathing a little heavy and I couldn’t help but notice the slight sultriness when he spoke. This meant something, right? Right?!! I was just about to leap in utter joy and embrace him and kiss him and ma-
“See the onyx, heavy clouds? It’s going to get colder.” With this, he reached over me and slid close the glass window pane. And left.
I stood there motionless for a minute or two, or maybe hours, -who knows, who really cares?- before it struck me what had just happened.
The disappointment. It hurt and stung. And hurt. Like someone had sprinkled salt over a fresh stab wound.
Leaving me hanging in the middle has happened a lot, and that’s not only my cock talking to you. I should have been used to it and should have learnt to stop my hopes from soaring high, but as they say, old habits die hard. I should have realized he might be straight after all, in spite of his androgynous appearance and should have taken the twelve year age gap into account as well. I should have done a lot of things from getting fed up to running after him to demand answers from him to asking why he gave these delusive signs and signals, but instead, I just got back to preparing for the chemistry test next day.
Balancing chemical equations… why, Yuu, why….
******
It was not only body chilling cold that woke me up from the slumber I had drifted off to while trying to memorize chemical reactions with a chemically misbalanced brain. It was more than that - the non-stop chattering of my teeth, the beating of the angry rain onto the window shed, the ear-deafening thunder and the darkness I was shrouded in. Power cut. Fuck.
I saw no point in getting back to my textbook, as it was not an important test anyway or so it seemed at the moment.
With my body resembling a vibrator, I got ready for bed and packed myself up under the blanket. It took me a while again to realize that I was short of proper insulation. I am rather slow today, aren’t I? Like an idiot, earlier that day, I had washed the thicker blanket because it smelt of dust. Ah, it was going to be a hard and long night.
Just how right I was, but in some other sense.
While I was busy trying to keep myself cocooned, I missed a pair of feet shuffling into my room.
“Kou-chan, are you asleep?” Yuu whispered, a soft soothing melody which I tried hard to ignore. I was still mad at him. For what? Was it really his fault? I was still going to ignore him though, before my body started noticing him. Again. Yes, I didn’t want a repeat of the earlier episode.
I cringed into a more fetal position than I was crouched into. Apparently, he saw the shift.
“Kou-chan, are you angry at me?” he asked softly.
How the fuck does he know? Every fucking time! Am I that easy to read?!
“I’m good. Go away.” I mumbled, almost inaudibly.
“No, you’re cold.” Came the easy reply.
“It’s fine, really.”
I should have atleast faced him while speaking, out of courtesy. But I was just too frustrated.
“Let me help you get warm, atleast.” The sultry voice again.
No, brain, ignore! And, cock, especially you!!!
And before I could truly comprehend the meaning behind his words, my blanket of solace was stripped off of me to be replaced soon after with an addition. The warmth of another human body. And his blanket too, of course.
His lean arms snaked around my torso and I was surrounded by the faint smell of his cologne and a very Yuu-ish warmth.
“Let’s sleep now.” An innocent request, if only my mind would not reach out slimy limbs to catch the double meaning in it. But I cut off the dirty train of thought and tried to fulfill what he requested. But some things are easier said than done.
I could not stop thinking about how well our bodies fit together, how his breathing was evening out slowly, how his tight hold of me might leave me with marks tomorrow, how he could be caressing me right now, how I could turn my face a little and kiss those delectable plush lips, how I could-
“What’s wrong?” I broke out of my reverie to realize my breathing had sped up again and a hint of arousal was building up at the pit of my stomach. Oh no!
And things turned for the worse when accidentally I moved and Yuu’s fingers grazed against my crotch. The touch soft as a feather alighting on a bed of dawn sent a sudden jolt of electricity running up my body, making me tingle all over. And I moaned.
Fucking moaned. A loud keening sound that escaped my lips before my brain registered it.
And he heard me.
He must have. Because all the cacophony outside just chose that moment to get silenced. No thunder, no howling wind, just a steady rhythm of the rain pouring down.
I really prayed for someone to kill me then and there!
But the next thing that happened, I had never ever imagined it. Okay, maybe I had but they were mostly parts of wet dreams that I won’t say I’m proud of. They resided in a part of my brain which I tried to keep out of reach of my daily thought process.
Another reason why I strongly believed that he heard me was because next I felt a deliberate pressure directed at my most sensitive part, a pressure hard enough to be noticeable as deliberate but light enough to just cause me to squirm and bite my lower lip harder.
“Did you… say something maybe?” Seductive. Definitely. Without any ounce of doubt. I might have been possessed by a lust addled brain but I was still not gone enough to not recognize it. And now the random touches and pressurization had changed to a constant rubbing with a gradually increasing pace.
“Y..Yuu…Nnn..” I was clutching desperately at the material of his silk night shirt with one hand and the other trying to pry his hand away from committing the sinful act. It was wrong. Very very wrong. How could I let him do something like this to me when I wasn’t even sure of the grounds on which our relationship stood? Was it physical or was it emotional? All this while I’ve always been forced to hit and stumble back against the barrier he was expert at building around himself. Did it mean that I had actually managed to penetrate the wall? Or was he just horny today?
If that was the case, then this had to stop. No matter, how good it felt, how much effort it would need on my part…
“S..St…Stop.. Yuu… Stop…” I dug my fingers a little harder into his skin and his movement finally stopped punctuated by a low hiss by him.
“Don’t you like it?” He said, panting a bit himself.
I had to blush at that. Because the answer was yes. Indeed, I was liking it very much. But, no, I was not letting him get away without an explanation this time. I needed to know.
“I…” again, it was harder to speak out the words in my mind and I found myself stuttering, “ N..No… I.. Why?”
“Huh?”
“W-why?” I tried again.
“Why?” Okay, he was not helping at all. I was starting to get furious now.
“You know what I mean. Don’t try to dodge me this time!” Desperate. I was reaching that stage. And I turned my face to look at him finally.
I was faced with his bare chest, revealed by my attempt at controlling myself earlier, which had resulted in tearing off of the first few buttons. Oops! It was hard to ignore the heaving and the numerous times he was wetting his throat. I tore my eyes away from his jaw and moved further up to reach his eyes.
There was a sudden change in his eyes when he looked at my damp ones. Those dark with lust eyes shifted to a warm darkness. It reflected a calm, serene soul. I didn’t know whether to admire him more for his high emotional quotient or feel wounded by his ability to control his emotions so well. And I don’t know why I was observing these things. Not like these helped any in resolving my confusion.
He slowly reached over with his hand to cup my cheek and caught the falling tear with his thumb.
I must have been staring at him blankly because of the sudden intimate action, he decided to clarify.
“You still don’t know, do you?” Like his eyes, his voice was calm too, unwavering, undaunted by my earlier outburst.
“Huh?”
“Oh, you’re so cute, Kou-chan!” His low whisper transformed into breathy chuckles.
“You do know what I do for a living, don’t you?”
I thought for a minute… more or less.
“Psychology?” I was more confused when he nodded his head at that and kept beaming at me.
And then it hit me. Of course. He would know, wouldn’t he? Studying humans is a major part of the curriculum that he taught. So, obviously it wasn’t too hard for him to decipher my blatant, not too discreet advances to be what they were. That is how probably he read me like a book too. I’m simple-minded after all. Yes, you must be stupid if you didn’t figure it out by now.
So, he knew. Oh God, what else did he know about? And since when? He must know all my secret aspirations then? That didn’t sit too well with me. I should have probably confronted him before. Oh well.
“Uh.. I still don’t know one thing though..” I started but was shut up immediately by his lips enveloping mine.
Everything stood still till he slowly started to move. His full lips sensually against my lower lip and his body shifting to be partly on top of me now. His right leg smoothly sliding between my awkwardly bent legs and the hand that was cupping my cheek moved upwards to clutch at my blonde traces and he pulled at them. A bit too hard to facilitate a loud gasp from me. And his tongue was granted entry. Shrewd. Not that I was complaining.
It was a different feeling, to say the least. Much better than what I thought it would feel like. It felt like lava running in my veins, instead of blood, making each part of me burn hot with pleasure. His tongue traced the inside of my mouth with a new found vigor, a keen interest to explore, an urge to please. And was that a throaty moan from him? As if I was not aroused enough already, it was turning into a throbbing pain by now. My hand automatically came loose from the fist at his back and travelled south to release some of the pressure. He beat me to it again.
“Kou… Let me keep my promise from earlier…” he was taking undue advantage of my slowness today and with a smirk, he gave a yank to my pajama bottoms. In a second, they were pooled near my feet and my panda-print boxers sporting a tent made an appearance.
His smirk widened at that.
“What…,” he lowered his head till his lips blew hot breath on my ear, “do you want me to do?”
Oh Lord, not that question! My head was getting full of vivid ideas and very wild pictures of all the things he could do to me.
“Hm..?” he said this while slowly starting to pull at the waistband of my happy-day boxers. Happy day indeed.
I let out another breathy moan when the cotton of the obstructive clothing grazed against my erection. It was a sound unknown to my own ears, I wasn’t even aware I was capable of producing such sounds. My boxers joined my pajama bottoms soon enough. I kicked them both out of the way.
Suddenly I was conscious of my nakedness and started to close my legs, but realized too late he had his planted between mine, rendering me incapable of doing so.
I could feel the heat collecting at my cheeks when he wrapped his hand around my length, by now I could feel his hardness poking my side where he was pressed against.
“Hnnnnghh… Yuu..”
“Yes, my Kou-chan, instruct me…”How the fuck was he managing to make his voice sound so sexy?!
“Guide me… tell me what makes you feel.. good…,” he paused for dramatic effect and I was puzzled for a moment, but then did as told and let my left hand join his around my hard shaft. “Yessss… show me how you like it best.”
I might just come only by listening to that voice. Let alone what that voice was directing me to do. I would follow it anywhere.
“Show me, babe…”
Another jolt of pleasure through my entire system. And another comparatively louder moan.
Slowly, we began where we had left off earlier, but without any barrier of clothing on my part this time. A slow up and down movement at first with a promise of gradual improvement.
It felt so damn awesome that my eyes had rolled back to the back of my head and I missed my chance of seeing Yuu shift lower. It wasn’t until I felt a wetness on the tip of my cock that I jolted upright in surprise. Blanket thrown away in the process, I now looked down at the most erotic scene that I’d ever encountered in my life. Yuu’s tongue darted out to give another experimental lick, now starting from the bottom of my shaft to the head. My whole body shivered at that. It could have been the cold but I would bet a hundred eggs that it was purely the result of his administrations.
With his other hand he was lifting my shirt up, making his way up- to where, you pretty well have an idea of- with slow caresses, leaving goosebumps behind. His fingers reached his destination and he tugged hard at the attentive nub there.
“Aaah..” My back arched, my body taut as a bow, full of pent up tension which egged on an urge to grow massively at the pit of my stomach.
After a few more teasing tastes of pre-cum that was sure to have been collected at the tip, Yuu suddenly bobbed his head down and took as much of my length as he could inside his mouth. The sudden heat sent white lights flashing through my eyes and I knew I was not far off from my climax.
“Hnnngh..”
“Mmmmhm…” he hummed low, the vibrations driving me closer and closer to the edge.
My legs were closing again with too much pleasure and he placed the nipple-pinching hand on my right thigh to give him better access. Throughout the whole process he kept his eyes fixated on mine, giving me no route of escape and hence, making me blush harder.
He got back to his slow pace from earlier, probably sensing that I wouldn’t last long. And trust my brain to take this opportunity to contemplate further on where it was going. On how he was so skillful at this, how probably I wasn’t the first man he had ever been with, how he was so much older than me and still blowing me, how I should think about returning the favor to him, how could we take it a step further than this…
Seeing that I was lost again, he rapidly increased the pace of his hand on the lower end of my length and slipped his mouth off of my cock with an audible pop, a thin trail of his saliva still connecting me to him.
He moved back up so that his face was inches apart from mine, with a sensual sway that I’ve seen him walk with on days when something has obviously satisfied him.
He kept staring at me, his hand not stopping even for a second. I was forced to bend backwards more and my eyes closed in the process. My head was back on the pillow now. He followed me and was hovering on top of me. I could feel him. The familiar urge to explode was sky-rocketting at my lower abdomen. Not long now.
“Look at me, Kou…”he whispered, his lips almost touching mine.
I obeyed him.
“You are driving me crazy…,” he continued, “Do you know how sexy you look like this…? Do you know… how long I’ve waited to be sure..?”
A pause again.
“Unnfff… Y..Yuuu… Nnngh..” Not more than a minute now..
“I love you, my Kou-chan..”
And that was all that was needed for me to finally let go and cum all over our stomachs and his hand.
“Yuuuuu….fff..” I bit hard at the junction between his shoulder and neck to keep myself from getting any louder than I already was. Now, that would leave a mark for sure.
He held me tightly until my body had stopped convulsing.
I ran my tongue over the angry red mark I’d made and showered him with wet kisses, travelling up his jaw-line. I waited near the corner of his lips. I noticed they didn’t look abused yet. With a smirk, I took his lower lip between my teeth, gently at first and then gave a hard tug at them. He parted his lips in reaction to the almost violent action, and a war of tongue began…
We finally let go of each other to catch our strangling breathes.
“Well, that was fast...” He said with a hint of laughter in his voice.
“Shut up!” I replied defensively, “I can certainly last longer than that. You took me by surprise at the end….” I trialed off…
Because that reminded me… had I heard correctly? Did he really say he loved me? Brain, you were not fooling me, were you?!
Well, I could always ask the man himself. Okay, it wasn’t that easy without making you feel embarrassed as if you were standing naked under a spotlight! I looked down at myself… My situation wasn’t any different anyways. Oh hell, he won’t eat me for it…
“Yuu..?” I ventured with shifty eyes.
He looked back up at me with expectant eyes. Did I tell you how easy it is to get lost in the clearness you see there despite the darkness? I summoned all my will power to put forward what I had in my mind. Enough hiding I had done. It was about time I got things straight, no matter the fact that I wasn’t straight myself. Okay, ignore that statement…
“Did …uh…what you said.. earlier.. did you ..,” I had to gulp down the lump that was forming in my throat. C’mon, Takashima Kouyou, man up!
But then I was dealing with a gentleman here.
“That I love you?” he asked sincerely.
I nodded at that.
First time, I saw a soft pinkish-red hue dust his cheeks.
“Yes…I can’t tell you when it started but no, I wasn’t lying to make you climax faster.” He finished by sticking out his tongue childishly.
I huffed and kneed him softly for it. Where exactly, I knew when he let out a strangled moan, closed his eyes and rested his forehead on my shoulder. Oops.. I had completely forgotten about him!!!
What should I do? The answer was already forming in my head. Another of those feelings that makes your throat constrict and your head spin with indecision. Was I ready for it? Could I trust him to handle me? Would he go along with me? There was only one way to find out…
While he was busy shifting himself into a better position so that he could keep himself away from any more accidents, I took his right hand in my hand. I used one of my legs to keep him from moving away and making sure he rubbed good against me.
Just thinking about what I was going to do was bringing back life to my flaccid cock.
“Uhhhh… St-stop… what … are you thinking?”
“Wait…” My eyelids turned hooded and my voice surprisingly dropped down to a very husky whisper.
Next, I turned over his hand and kissed his knuckles. Wet and messy, that’s how I treated his digit and soon enough, his entire finger was inside me. In my mouth, that is. I sucked at it, thinking of it as something else, which I haven’t seen yet. Which I wanted inside me. And not in my mouth, no, I wasn’t ready for that yet!
“Kou…Are you… sure?”
“Mmmhmm…” I hummed with a steady hooded look directed at him.
“You… don’t have to do this..”He tried again. No dude, I was not backing out now.
“Just… let me…” With this, I licked at his second finger and took that in too. I wet them in all possible ways until I was sure they were moist enough.
He started to open his mouth to protest again, but I pulled him down for an open mouthed kiss while guiding his fingers down south. He tried forcing his fingers out of my grip again.
“Yuu, please…,” I pleaded earnestly, “I want this… and you know, as much as you do…”
“Tell me to stop if it hurts, okay?” And the mighty soldier surrendered to my power of seduction!
I nodded and let out a small whine of pain when he pushed the first digit in. Yuu stopped and started to pull out, but I refused to let him do so.
“No… Don’t…Just move… pleee- ah…” I knew it would take me a little while to get used to the feeling of the intrusion, but it was not too bad a feeling. And I wanted him to know that.
“A little …deeper…”I was literally fucking myself with his finger and he chose this moment to finally rid me off of all my clothing. I did the same to his night shirt and braced myself before hooking my fingers onto the waistband of his silk pants, which were tight to the point of tearing. Almost. And my maths told me he was big. That scared me a little. Only a little. I knew how that size would turn me into a melted pile of goo by the time we were done, from all the yaoi the girls in my school read. Don’t ask how I know.
“Do I sense fear..?” Sex-God Yuu was back again. “C’mon, go ahead…” The confident smirk made me gulp once.
I pulled the black silk down and let a moan slip past my parted lips at the view of Yuu in all his naked glory and at the addition of another digit. He was scissoring past my tight ring of muscles now and was curling his fingers to look for that enticing bundle of nerves.
And about the other matter…he was big alright, big and demanding and leaking pre cum already. And his lean frame was shrouded in an almost feminine grace, though he had all the right muscles at the right places. His body was toned and an uncensored view of it was a thousand times better than the few glimpses I’ve gotten over the past months. I’m not a creep. Period.
I thought of providing him with some relief atleast. So, I took him in my hands and started pumping him. He was so aroused that even the slightest touch was sending shivers down his entire body. He wouldn’t last till the best part began if he continued being so gentle with m-
“Aaaah…” He had hit my prostrate. I quickly forced another of his fingers inside me, totaling to three now. Few seconds more and that’s all I was going to give my body to get ready.
I snapped my attention back to Yuu when he placed a hand over my wrist, restricting my administrations to his cock. His rhythmic moans, a lust-filled song to my ears, came to a stop, continuing into heavy panting sounds. I looked at him with all sorts of questions written over my face.
“You… need…to…stop…if…you don’t… want me…to……cum…right…now…”
“Then.. you stop being gentle and just push… yourself… in me…” I bent down and planted a kiss at the red tip of his length. I was going to lubricate him in this manner, though I was very hesitant about it. Thoughtful as he is, he stopped me again.
“I… uh… came prepared…” The blush was there again and he reached back to the edge of the bed to retrieve his discarded pants. He was back almost immediately with a sachet of lube and condom each.
“I … was going to…um…” It was funny for once to see him struggling with speech.
“Make your move?” I finished for him, with a wicked smile.
“Whatever.” He huffed and tore off the pack of condom with his teeth. Can this man get any sexier than this?!
He rolled it up onto his cock, opened the packet of lube in a similar fashion and applied a scrumptious amount, then finally, fucking finally, guided it to my entrance.
I was nervous again because of obvious reasons. But I had my trust in Yuu and so I shut my eyes and waited for the inevitable.
“Kou… baby…we don’t have to do this if you do-,”
“Just… do it!” I pulled him into a tight hug and buried my face in his neck to distract myself. And distract it did, with the smell of his sweat, cologne and something else which was unique to him and good but I could not place it. And Yuu used this opportunity t-
“Ohhhh…” The air was filled with the unison of both of ours moans when he entered me.
“Are… you okay?” he asked me carefully. Always so caring, it almost brought tears to my eyes. And blame the slight pain for it too. Three fingers were nothing as compared to him.
“I… feel.. so full… Fill me up … more… moooove…” I managed to get out.
“You.. can… bite me if you want to… again..”
Before I could react to that heady remark, he began to move, slowly, being careful again.
“God, FUCK. You’re so tight… Nnnnnnghhh…”
As he settled into a steady rhythm, the pain subsided as well to give way to pleasure.
“Go… deeper…” I wanted him to bury himself inside me, I wanted him to brush that spot again, I wanted him to lose himself in this fornication and let him blow our minds away.
He came true to my words and started thrusting a little harder to reach deeper. With each thrust, he went faster and more powerful. I could feel him almost near where I wanted him to hit. Thrust. A little more. Thrust. Just a little more. Thru-
“OH MY GOD! Fuuuuuuuuuck…Do it agaiiiiin…” I screamed out.
He lifted up my leg and wound it around his shoulders and angled his body so that he could hit it again.
He began with his thrusting again and each time he hit my prostrate, I went blind with white lights around my vision. I was raking my nails all over his back, dragging them with the intensity with which he thrusted and the louder we moaned.
I was expecting my voice to be extremely hoarse the next day, because I had never screamed that loud ever in my life. We almost drowned out the sound of the rain outside.
The slapping of skin against skin, heavy breathing, loud moans and the creaking of the bed filled the air.
For the second time, I felt the pressure build at the pit of my stomach. Not long now…
“Yuu.. I…Aaaaaah…,” He understood what I was trying to say before I could finish and started fisting my length trapped between both of our bodies.
A minute more of pumps and thrusts and we both came with another synchronized expression of extreme pleasure. He continued his movements till we both rode out our orgasms and then he collapsed beside me.
I could feel the exhaustion creeping up on me now. Same was the case with him, I could see.
I cuddled up to his chest and he wrapped his arms around me, entangling our legs together. He made sure that both of us were properly covered by the blankets and slowly rocked me in order to lull me to sleep.
I had almost drifted off when he broke the silence, “Kou-chan…”
“Hmmm?”
“That was great.”
“…”
“Love you. Sleep now.”
“Love you too, Yuu-kun…”
“Drop the ‘kun’.” To the sound of his soft laughing and the calm outside, I fell asleep, the inner euphoria and bliss taking me into a land of pleasant dreams.
A/N: I hope it wasn't too horrible to read >__> This is un-betaed and been a while since I wrote something. Please tell me what you think! m(.__.)m
Author: anknick
Pairing: Aoi/ Uruha [Yuu/ Kouyou]
Genre: AU, Humor, Fluff, Romance
Rating: NC-17
Warning: Derp!Uruha, Crackish, Kouyou's POV, Sex, badly written porn XD
Disclaimer: If i could own these two awesome people, i would have died by now. What i mean is, all i own is the weird plot.
Summary: Kouyou, 16 yrs old, is a student who shares an apartment with a 28 yrs old college professor, Yuu. What happens when Kouyou has feelings for the older man and can't summon up the courage to confront him about it? Yuu's certain actions leave Kouyou puzzled as to what are the other's intentions...
Comments: Ah... This idea was bouncing around in my head for a quite a time no, so i decided to give it a try. i am not good at writing porn or fics, for that matter. But I tried, and i hope you like it! :)
“Shut the fucking window, Kou-chan!!!”
Contradicting, isn’t it? Swearing and using “chan” in the same sentence? Well, that’s just my cute, adorable, workaholic, raven haired with deep obsidian eyes (trust me, you can easily get lost into) and socially awkward roommate, Yuu, for whom I definitely don’t have the hots for. Oh, I’m such a bad case of hopelessness, aren’t I? Maybe it’s an infatuation, which has lasted for more than a year now…? Okay, I will term it as a crush. That’s it. No going further than that.
“Are you listening to me?!” His usual baritone, now an octave high, floated through the living room into my bedroom where I was standing waiting for the sun to set. I’m usually not this sappy, but it was the first time in months I got to leave early from my prep class and I wanted to burn the scene into my mind till it is refreshed again.
“In a minute, Yuu-kun,” I called back, “the sun has just almost reached the horizon.”
A silence followed this and I could imagine him rolling his eyes, but he didn’t say anything after that.
So, like I was saying before, don’t get the wrong idea, he’s a really nice guy. And I’m not biased at all. Really. This was my opinion of him the very first time we met, in Café Kimochi, where I work part time. I was serving a big group of college students celebrating the loss of one of theirs virginity and I was struggling to keep up with the amount of order that was flowing in. I was about to drop a scalding bowl of French onion soup on some random person’s head, when Yuu helped me stabilize myself and saved me from being cut off from my only source of income. I still remember how grateful I was and how I insisted that he accept the cappuccino as a token of thanks. In the end, I got yelled off by the manager for it but things could have been worse.
Since then, he was a regular customer at the café and we would chat. I came to know about him. A lot. All the information gathered stealthily and discreetly little by little, without him knowing that I was actually interrogating him. Curiosity. That’s all it was. And when a few months later, he told me he was in urgent need of someone to share the expenses of his apartment with, I jumped at the offer. Literally too, he eyed me really suspiciously then. Psychology professor instincts maybe. I suppose he’s really-
“Isn’t it already dark outside?” His deep voice, right beside my ear, with his hot breath fanning over my wind blown neck, sent shivers down my spine.
“I…uh…” I struggled with speech, as he danced his fingers over my arm and stood close behind me.
When did he come up to me? I didn’t hear him at all. Okay, I was a little pre-occupied with thoughts of him, but still!
My heartbeat was rising by the minute and I could feel the hard muscles of his abdomen, pressing onto my back. Maybe, a hard something else? Oh, that just couldn’t be!
Shut the fuck up, imaginative brain!
But he was breathing a little heavy and I couldn’t help but notice the slight sultriness when he spoke. This meant something, right? Right?!! I was just about to leap in utter joy and embrace him and kiss him and ma-
“See the onyx, heavy clouds? It’s going to get colder.” With this, he reached over me and slid close the glass window pane. And left.
I stood there motionless for a minute or two, or maybe hours, -who knows, who really cares?- before it struck me what had just happened.
The disappointment. It hurt and stung. And hurt. Like someone had sprinkled salt over a fresh stab wound.
Leaving me hanging in the middle has happened a lot, and that’s not only my cock talking to you. I should have been used to it and should have learnt to stop my hopes from soaring high, but as they say, old habits die hard. I should have realized he might be straight after all, in spite of his androgynous appearance and should have taken the twelve year age gap into account as well. I should have done a lot of things from getting fed up to running after him to demand answers from him to asking why he gave these delusive signs and signals, but instead, I just got back to preparing for the chemistry test next day.
Balancing chemical equations… why, Yuu, why….
******
It was not only body chilling cold that woke me up from the slumber I had drifted off to while trying to memorize chemical reactions with a chemically misbalanced brain. It was more than that - the non-stop chattering of my teeth, the beating of the angry rain onto the window shed, the ear-deafening thunder and the darkness I was shrouded in. Power cut. Fuck.
I saw no point in getting back to my textbook, as it was not an important test anyway or so it seemed at the moment.
With my body resembling a vibrator, I got ready for bed and packed myself up under the blanket. It took me a while again to realize that I was short of proper insulation. I am rather slow today, aren’t I? Like an idiot, earlier that day, I had washed the thicker blanket because it smelt of dust. Ah, it was going to be a hard and long night.
Just how right I was, but in some other sense.
While I was busy trying to keep myself cocooned, I missed a pair of feet shuffling into my room.
“Kou-chan, are you asleep?” Yuu whispered, a soft soothing melody which I tried hard to ignore. I was still mad at him. For what? Was it really his fault? I was still going to ignore him though, before my body started noticing him. Again. Yes, I didn’t want a repeat of the earlier episode.
I cringed into a more fetal position than I was crouched into. Apparently, he saw the shift.
“Kou-chan, are you angry at me?” he asked softly.
How the fuck does he know? Every fucking time! Am I that easy to read?!
“I’m good. Go away.” I mumbled, almost inaudibly.
“No, you’re cold.” Came the easy reply.
“It’s fine, really.”
I should have atleast faced him while speaking, out of courtesy. But I was just too frustrated.
“Let me help you get warm, atleast.” The sultry voice again.
No, brain, ignore! And, cock, especially you!!!
And before I could truly comprehend the meaning behind his words, my blanket of solace was stripped off of me to be replaced soon after with an addition. The warmth of another human body. And his blanket too, of course.
His lean arms snaked around my torso and I was surrounded by the faint smell of his cologne and a very Yuu-ish warmth.
“Let’s sleep now.” An innocent request, if only my mind would not reach out slimy limbs to catch the double meaning in it. But I cut off the dirty train of thought and tried to fulfill what he requested. But some things are easier said than done.
I could not stop thinking about how well our bodies fit together, how his breathing was evening out slowly, how his tight hold of me might leave me with marks tomorrow, how he could be caressing me right now, how I could turn my face a little and kiss those delectable plush lips, how I could-
“What’s wrong?” I broke out of my reverie to realize my breathing had sped up again and a hint of arousal was building up at the pit of my stomach. Oh no!
And things turned for the worse when accidentally I moved and Yuu’s fingers grazed against my crotch. The touch soft as a feather alighting on a bed of dawn sent a sudden jolt of electricity running up my body, making me tingle all over. And I moaned.
Fucking moaned. A loud keening sound that escaped my lips before my brain registered it.
And he heard me.
He must have. Because all the cacophony outside just chose that moment to get silenced. No thunder, no howling wind, just a steady rhythm of the rain pouring down.
I really prayed for someone to kill me then and there!
But the next thing that happened, I had never ever imagined it. Okay, maybe I had but they were mostly parts of wet dreams that I won’t say I’m proud of. They resided in a part of my brain which I tried to keep out of reach of my daily thought process.
Another reason why I strongly believed that he heard me was because next I felt a deliberate pressure directed at my most sensitive part, a pressure hard enough to be noticeable as deliberate but light enough to just cause me to squirm and bite my lower lip harder.
“Did you… say something maybe?” Seductive. Definitely. Without any ounce of doubt. I might have been possessed by a lust addled brain but I was still not gone enough to not recognize it. And now the random touches and pressurization had changed to a constant rubbing with a gradually increasing pace.
“Y..Yuu…Nnn..” I was clutching desperately at the material of his silk night shirt with one hand and the other trying to pry his hand away from committing the sinful act. It was wrong. Very very wrong. How could I let him do something like this to me when I wasn’t even sure of the grounds on which our relationship stood? Was it physical or was it emotional? All this while I’ve always been forced to hit and stumble back against the barrier he was expert at building around himself. Did it mean that I had actually managed to penetrate the wall? Or was he just horny today?
If that was the case, then this had to stop. No matter, how good it felt, how much effort it would need on my part…
“S..St…Stop.. Yuu… Stop…” I dug my fingers a little harder into his skin and his movement finally stopped punctuated by a low hiss by him.
“Don’t you like it?” He said, panting a bit himself.
I had to blush at that. Because the answer was yes. Indeed, I was liking it very much. But, no, I was not letting him get away without an explanation this time. I needed to know.
“I…” again, it was harder to speak out the words in my mind and I found myself stuttering, “ N..No… I.. Why?”
“Huh?”
“W-why?” I tried again.
“Why?” Okay, he was not helping at all. I was starting to get furious now.
“You know what I mean. Don’t try to dodge me this time!” Desperate. I was reaching that stage. And I turned my face to look at him finally.
I was faced with his bare chest, revealed by my attempt at controlling myself earlier, which had resulted in tearing off of the first few buttons. Oops! It was hard to ignore the heaving and the numerous times he was wetting his throat. I tore my eyes away from his jaw and moved further up to reach his eyes.
There was a sudden change in his eyes when he looked at my damp ones. Those dark with lust eyes shifted to a warm darkness. It reflected a calm, serene soul. I didn’t know whether to admire him more for his high emotional quotient or feel wounded by his ability to control his emotions so well. And I don’t know why I was observing these things. Not like these helped any in resolving my confusion.
He slowly reached over with his hand to cup my cheek and caught the falling tear with his thumb.
I must have been staring at him blankly because of the sudden intimate action, he decided to clarify.
“You still don’t know, do you?” Like his eyes, his voice was calm too, unwavering, undaunted by my earlier outburst.
“Huh?”
“Oh, you’re so cute, Kou-chan!” His low whisper transformed into breathy chuckles.
“You do know what I do for a living, don’t you?”
I thought for a minute… more or less.
“Psychology?” I was more confused when he nodded his head at that and kept beaming at me.
And then it hit me. Of course. He would know, wouldn’t he? Studying humans is a major part of the curriculum that he taught. So, obviously it wasn’t too hard for him to decipher my blatant, not too discreet advances to be what they were. That is how probably he read me like a book too. I’m simple-minded after all. Yes, you must be stupid if you didn’t figure it out by now.
So, he knew. Oh God, what else did he know about? And since when? He must know all my secret aspirations then? That didn’t sit too well with me. I should have probably confronted him before. Oh well.
“Uh.. I still don’t know one thing though..” I started but was shut up immediately by his lips enveloping mine.
Everything stood still till he slowly started to move. His full lips sensually against my lower lip and his body shifting to be partly on top of me now. His right leg smoothly sliding between my awkwardly bent legs and the hand that was cupping my cheek moved upwards to clutch at my blonde traces and he pulled at them. A bit too hard to facilitate a loud gasp from me. And his tongue was granted entry. Shrewd. Not that I was complaining.
It was a different feeling, to say the least. Much better than what I thought it would feel like. It felt like lava running in my veins, instead of blood, making each part of me burn hot with pleasure. His tongue traced the inside of my mouth with a new found vigor, a keen interest to explore, an urge to please. And was that a throaty moan from him? As if I was not aroused enough already, it was turning into a throbbing pain by now. My hand automatically came loose from the fist at his back and travelled south to release some of the pressure. He beat me to it again.
“Kou… Let me keep my promise from earlier…” he was taking undue advantage of my slowness today and with a smirk, he gave a yank to my pajama bottoms. In a second, they were pooled near my feet and my panda-print boxers sporting a tent made an appearance.
His smirk widened at that.
“What…,” he lowered his head till his lips blew hot breath on my ear, “do you want me to do?”
Oh Lord, not that question! My head was getting full of vivid ideas and very wild pictures of all the things he could do to me.
“Hm..?” he said this while slowly starting to pull at the waistband of my happy-day boxers. Happy day indeed.
I let out another breathy moan when the cotton of the obstructive clothing grazed against my erection. It was a sound unknown to my own ears, I wasn’t even aware I was capable of producing such sounds. My boxers joined my pajama bottoms soon enough. I kicked them both out of the way.
Suddenly I was conscious of my nakedness and started to close my legs, but realized too late he had his planted between mine, rendering me incapable of doing so.
I could feel the heat collecting at my cheeks when he wrapped his hand around my length, by now I could feel his hardness poking my side where he was pressed against.
“Hnnnnghh… Yuu..”
“Yes, my Kou-chan, instruct me…”How the fuck was he managing to make his voice sound so sexy?!
“Guide me… tell me what makes you feel.. good…,” he paused for dramatic effect and I was puzzled for a moment, but then did as told and let my left hand join his around my hard shaft. “Yessss… show me how you like it best.”
I might just come only by listening to that voice. Let alone what that voice was directing me to do. I would follow it anywhere.
“Show me, babe…”
Another jolt of pleasure through my entire system. And another comparatively louder moan.
Slowly, we began where we had left off earlier, but without any barrier of clothing on my part this time. A slow up and down movement at first with a promise of gradual improvement.
It felt so damn awesome that my eyes had rolled back to the back of my head and I missed my chance of seeing Yuu shift lower. It wasn’t until I felt a wetness on the tip of my cock that I jolted upright in surprise. Blanket thrown away in the process, I now looked down at the most erotic scene that I’d ever encountered in my life. Yuu’s tongue darted out to give another experimental lick, now starting from the bottom of my shaft to the head. My whole body shivered at that. It could have been the cold but I would bet a hundred eggs that it was purely the result of his administrations.
With his other hand he was lifting my shirt up, making his way up- to where, you pretty well have an idea of- with slow caresses, leaving goosebumps behind. His fingers reached his destination and he tugged hard at the attentive nub there.
“Aaah..” My back arched, my body taut as a bow, full of pent up tension which egged on an urge to grow massively at the pit of my stomach.
After a few more teasing tastes of pre-cum that was sure to have been collected at the tip, Yuu suddenly bobbed his head down and took as much of my length as he could inside his mouth. The sudden heat sent white lights flashing through my eyes and I knew I was not far off from my climax.
“Hnnngh..”
“Mmmmhm…” he hummed low, the vibrations driving me closer and closer to the edge.
My legs were closing again with too much pleasure and he placed the nipple-pinching hand on my right thigh to give him better access. Throughout the whole process he kept his eyes fixated on mine, giving me no route of escape and hence, making me blush harder.
He got back to his slow pace from earlier, probably sensing that I wouldn’t last long. And trust my brain to take this opportunity to contemplate further on where it was going. On how he was so skillful at this, how probably I wasn’t the first man he had ever been with, how he was so much older than me and still blowing me, how I should think about returning the favor to him, how could we take it a step further than this…
Seeing that I was lost again, he rapidly increased the pace of his hand on the lower end of my length and slipped his mouth off of my cock with an audible pop, a thin trail of his saliva still connecting me to him.
He moved back up so that his face was inches apart from mine, with a sensual sway that I’ve seen him walk with on days when something has obviously satisfied him.
He kept staring at me, his hand not stopping even for a second. I was forced to bend backwards more and my eyes closed in the process. My head was back on the pillow now. He followed me and was hovering on top of me. I could feel him. The familiar urge to explode was sky-rocketting at my lower abdomen. Not long now.
“Look at me, Kou…”he whispered, his lips almost touching mine.
I obeyed him.
“You are driving me crazy…,” he continued, “Do you know how sexy you look like this…? Do you know… how long I’ve waited to be sure..?”
A pause again.
“Unnfff… Y..Yuuu… Nnngh..” Not more than a minute now..
“I love you, my Kou-chan..”
And that was all that was needed for me to finally let go and cum all over our stomachs and his hand.
“Yuuuuu….fff..” I bit hard at the junction between his shoulder and neck to keep myself from getting any louder than I already was. Now, that would leave a mark for sure.
He held me tightly until my body had stopped convulsing.
I ran my tongue over the angry red mark I’d made and showered him with wet kisses, travelling up his jaw-line. I waited near the corner of his lips. I noticed they didn’t look abused yet. With a smirk, I took his lower lip between my teeth, gently at first and then gave a hard tug at them. He parted his lips in reaction to the almost violent action, and a war of tongue began…
We finally let go of each other to catch our strangling breathes.
“Well, that was fast...” He said with a hint of laughter in his voice.
“Shut up!” I replied defensively, “I can certainly last longer than that. You took me by surprise at the end….” I trialed off…
Because that reminded me… had I heard correctly? Did he really say he loved me? Brain, you were not fooling me, were you?!
Well, I could always ask the man himself. Okay, it wasn’t that easy without making you feel embarrassed as if you were standing naked under a spotlight! I looked down at myself… My situation wasn’t any different anyways. Oh hell, he won’t eat me for it…
“Yuu..?” I ventured with shifty eyes.
He looked back up at me with expectant eyes. Did I tell you how easy it is to get lost in the clearness you see there despite the darkness? I summoned all my will power to put forward what I had in my mind. Enough hiding I had done. It was about time I got things straight, no matter the fact that I wasn’t straight myself. Okay, ignore that statement…
“Did …uh…what you said.. earlier.. did you ..,” I had to gulp down the lump that was forming in my throat. C’mon, Takashima Kouyou, man up!
But then I was dealing with a gentleman here.
“That I love you?” he asked sincerely.
I nodded at that.
First time, I saw a soft pinkish-red hue dust his cheeks.
“Yes…I can’t tell you when it started but no, I wasn’t lying to make you climax faster.” He finished by sticking out his tongue childishly.
I huffed and kneed him softly for it. Where exactly, I knew when he let out a strangled moan, closed his eyes and rested his forehead on my shoulder. Oops.. I had completely forgotten about him!!!
What should I do? The answer was already forming in my head. Another of those feelings that makes your throat constrict and your head spin with indecision. Was I ready for it? Could I trust him to handle me? Would he go along with me? There was only one way to find out…
While he was busy shifting himself into a better position so that he could keep himself away from any more accidents, I took his right hand in my hand. I used one of my legs to keep him from moving away and making sure he rubbed good against me.
Just thinking about what I was going to do was bringing back life to my flaccid cock.
“Uhhhh… St-stop… what … are you thinking?”
“Wait…” My eyelids turned hooded and my voice surprisingly dropped down to a very husky whisper.
Next, I turned over his hand and kissed his knuckles. Wet and messy, that’s how I treated his digit and soon enough, his entire finger was inside me. In my mouth, that is. I sucked at it, thinking of it as something else, which I haven’t seen yet. Which I wanted inside me. And not in my mouth, no, I wasn’t ready for that yet!
“Kou…Are you… sure?”
“Mmmhmm…” I hummed with a steady hooded look directed at him.
“You… don’t have to do this..”He tried again. No dude, I was not backing out now.
“Just… let me…” With this, I licked at his second finger and took that in too. I wet them in all possible ways until I was sure they were moist enough.
He started to open his mouth to protest again, but I pulled him down for an open mouthed kiss while guiding his fingers down south. He tried forcing his fingers out of my grip again.
“Yuu, please…,” I pleaded earnestly, “I want this… and you know, as much as you do…”
“Tell me to stop if it hurts, okay?” And the mighty soldier surrendered to my power of seduction!
I nodded and let out a small whine of pain when he pushed the first digit in. Yuu stopped and started to pull out, but I refused to let him do so.
“No… Don’t…Just move… pleee- ah…” I knew it would take me a little while to get used to the feeling of the intrusion, but it was not too bad a feeling. And I wanted him to know that.
“A little …deeper…”I was literally fucking myself with his finger and he chose this moment to finally rid me off of all my clothing. I did the same to his night shirt and braced myself before hooking my fingers onto the waistband of his silk pants, which were tight to the point of tearing. Almost. And my maths told me he was big. That scared me a little. Only a little. I knew how that size would turn me into a melted pile of goo by the time we were done, from all the yaoi the girls in my school read. Don’t ask how I know.
“Do I sense fear..?” Sex-God Yuu was back again. “C’mon, go ahead…” The confident smirk made me gulp once.
I pulled the black silk down and let a moan slip past my parted lips at the view of Yuu in all his naked glory and at the addition of another digit. He was scissoring past my tight ring of muscles now and was curling his fingers to look for that enticing bundle of nerves.
And about the other matter…he was big alright, big and demanding and leaking pre cum already. And his lean frame was shrouded in an almost feminine grace, though he had all the right muscles at the right places. His body was toned and an uncensored view of it was a thousand times better than the few glimpses I’ve gotten over the past months. I’m not a creep. Period.
I thought of providing him with some relief atleast. So, I took him in my hands and started pumping him. He was so aroused that even the slightest touch was sending shivers down his entire body. He wouldn’t last till the best part began if he continued being so gentle with m-
“Aaaah…” He had hit my prostrate. I quickly forced another of his fingers inside me, totaling to three now. Few seconds more and that’s all I was going to give my body to get ready.
I snapped my attention back to Yuu when he placed a hand over my wrist, restricting my administrations to his cock. His rhythmic moans, a lust-filled song to my ears, came to a stop, continuing into heavy panting sounds. I looked at him with all sorts of questions written over my face.
“You… need…to…stop…if…you don’t… want me…to……cum…right…now…”
“Then.. you stop being gentle and just push… yourself… in me…” I bent down and planted a kiss at the red tip of his length. I was going to lubricate him in this manner, though I was very hesitant about it. Thoughtful as he is, he stopped me again.
“I… uh… came prepared…” The blush was there again and he reached back to the edge of the bed to retrieve his discarded pants. He was back almost immediately with a sachet of lube and condom each.
“I … was going to…um…” It was funny for once to see him struggling with speech.
“Make your move?” I finished for him, with a wicked smile.
“Whatever.” He huffed and tore off the pack of condom with his teeth. Can this man get any sexier than this?!
He rolled it up onto his cock, opened the packet of lube in a similar fashion and applied a scrumptious amount, then finally, fucking finally, guided it to my entrance.
I was nervous again because of obvious reasons. But I had my trust in Yuu and so I shut my eyes and waited for the inevitable.
“Kou… baby…we don’t have to do this if you do-,”
“Just… do it!” I pulled him into a tight hug and buried my face in his neck to distract myself. And distract it did, with the smell of his sweat, cologne and something else which was unique to him and good but I could not place it. And Yuu used this opportunity t-
“Ohhhh…” The air was filled with the unison of both of ours moans when he entered me.
“Are… you okay?” he asked me carefully. Always so caring, it almost brought tears to my eyes. And blame the slight pain for it too. Three fingers were nothing as compared to him.
“I… feel.. so full… Fill me up … more… moooove…” I managed to get out.
“You.. can… bite me if you want to… again..”
Before I could react to that heady remark, he began to move, slowly, being careful again.
“God, FUCK. You’re so tight… Nnnnnnghhh…”
As he settled into a steady rhythm, the pain subsided as well to give way to pleasure.
“Go… deeper…” I wanted him to bury himself inside me, I wanted him to brush that spot again, I wanted him to lose himself in this fornication and let him blow our minds away.
He came true to my words and started thrusting a little harder to reach deeper. With each thrust, he went faster and more powerful. I could feel him almost near where I wanted him to hit. Thrust. A little more. Thrust. Just a little more. Thru-
“OH MY GOD! Fuuuuuuuuuck…Do it agaiiiiin…” I screamed out.
He lifted up my leg and wound it around his shoulders and angled his body so that he could hit it again.
He began with his thrusting again and each time he hit my prostrate, I went blind with white lights around my vision. I was raking my nails all over his back, dragging them with the intensity with which he thrusted and the louder we moaned.
I was expecting my voice to be extremely hoarse the next day, because I had never screamed that loud ever in my life. We almost drowned out the sound of the rain outside.
The slapping of skin against skin, heavy breathing, loud moans and the creaking of the bed filled the air.
For the second time, I felt the pressure build at the pit of my stomach. Not long now…
“Yuu.. I…Aaaaaah…,” He understood what I was trying to say before I could finish and started fisting my length trapped between both of our bodies.
A minute more of pumps and thrusts and we both came with another synchronized expression of extreme pleasure. He continued his movements till we both rode out our orgasms and then he collapsed beside me.
I could feel the exhaustion creeping up on me now. Same was the case with him, I could see.
I cuddled up to his chest and he wrapped his arms around me, entangling our legs together. He made sure that both of us were properly covered by the blankets and slowly rocked me in order to lull me to sleep.
I had almost drifted off when he broke the silence, “Kou-chan…”
“Hmmm?”
“That was great.”
“…”
“Love you. Sleep now.”
“Love you too, Yuu-kun…”
“Drop the ‘kun’.” To the sound of his soft laughing and the calm outside, I fell asleep, the inner euphoria and bliss taking me into a land of pleasant dreams.
A/N: I hope it wasn't too horrible to read >__> This is un-betaed and been a while since I wrote something. Please tell me what you think! m(.__.)m