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Starting from tomorrow I'm going on hunger strike. Although not exactly, for multiple reasons. Firstly because I have nothing to strike about. I have plenty of political dissatisfactions, but none that will be resolved by me refusing all forms of food. Secondly, because I will be forced into numerous meals on Tuesdays, Thursdays, Saturdays and Sundays. I do have intentions of avoiding digesting this food though.
I am sort of disappointed in myself for 'getting better' in the first place. It feels like I haven't really achieved a thing. Not only that, but this was sort of an inevitable slip back into old habits that has prevented me from talking about things like this for a long time. I have been better, but I haven't talked about it in fear that things might go upside down again.
I'm going to be opening up my fasting journal skinny_fishing to friends only mode. I'm going to delete all previous entries and start from scratch. While I'm fasting, I have creative outbursts, and so I'm hoping to track my drawings and writings in there. Please add me, as I'd like some of you to see the little doodles I'm prone to in such times.
Comments are off on this entry, for obvious reasons. I don't want any of you to be worried about me at or angry with me. I have been battling the most disgusting depression since 'giving up' my eating disorders and so if anything, this is what is BEST for me right now. I have deleted people from my friends list that I know also had eating disorders and might be likely to copy this behaviour. If any of you think you WILL be encouraged to stop eating or to start unhealthy eating habits please remove yourself from my friends list. I do NOT want to be responsible for copy-cat behaviour. Doing this is not healthy, and you will NOT be able to stop.
My goal weight has moved from 90lb to 60lb, which I hope to achieve by my 18th birthday (June 15th, 2006).
As I said before, please add my fasting journal!
Love, hugs and mugs of vegan hot chocolate,
Hannah
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