truths
quite encouraged by my audience of 1 after spontaneous decision to revive blog last night (direct consequence of current task - data analysis). hi sis!! *wave*
this morning a friend came round "chez Loh" and i had done some baking this morning and we had hot drinks and a nice catch up. was lovely to spend some time and talk and get to know each other more. at last life group i had mentioned one part of my past because someone's sister is struggling with the same thing. i think God brought me through what i lived through for a reason, and probably part of it is this. someday when it's time i will share my life testimony with this group (we have done it with our first life group). while there are things i'm not proud of, and i regret, i am not ashamed of my story because it's God's story of His love and really amazing grace. it's a story through which God's power is obvious, as is His mercy. in the past i used to think those whisperings "are you sure you want to tell? they'll judge you, etc" were from me, but i know how they are from the enemy and his pathetic attempts to get me to shut up about what God has done in my life. i have survived some pretty traumatic stuff, and i'm not ashamed of the journey i went through with God to get to where i am now. of course it's not a destination and i'm still learning and struggling with other things. no one's perfect, not any Christian, not any church leader and any whisperings that we have to be perfect are from the enemy. Don't believe it! Don't let him undermine God's power and the finality of the sacrifice of Jesus Christ, which is bigger than anything anyone can do.
i have definitely come a long way. but I don't think God is finished with me, or with L yet.
truths I know:
I am not bound to the past, my own mistakes or those of my upbringing. I am not bound to repeat the same mistakes. I am free and no longer a slave to sin.
I am a child of God. My identity and hope is in having my name written in the book of life. I know where I'm headed and why I'm here for now.
I have a prophesy that I will "Delight in my children" and I know I will. I will obviously have more than one and I will delight in them. looking forward!
God was with me even in my darkest moments. And will always be.
I am no longer lost! and that's a wonderful feeling.
this morning a friend came round "chez Loh" and i had done some baking this morning and we had hot drinks and a nice catch up. was lovely to spend some time and talk and get to know each other more. at last life group i had mentioned one part of my past because someone's sister is struggling with the same thing. i think God brought me through what i lived through for a reason, and probably part of it is this. someday when it's time i will share my life testimony with this group (we have done it with our first life group). while there are things i'm not proud of, and i regret, i am not ashamed of my story because it's God's story of His love and really amazing grace. it's a story through which God's power is obvious, as is His mercy. in the past i used to think those whisperings "are you sure you want to tell? they'll judge you, etc" were from me, but i know how they are from the enemy and his pathetic attempts to get me to shut up about what God has done in my life. i have survived some pretty traumatic stuff, and i'm not ashamed of the journey i went through with God to get to where i am now. of course it's not a destination and i'm still learning and struggling with other things. no one's perfect, not any Christian, not any church leader and any whisperings that we have to be perfect are from the enemy. Don't believe it! Don't let him undermine God's power and the finality of the sacrifice of Jesus Christ, which is bigger than anything anyone can do.
i have definitely come a long way. but I don't think God is finished with me, or with L yet.
truths I know:
I am not bound to the past, my own mistakes or those of my upbringing. I am not bound to repeat the same mistakes. I am free and no longer a slave to sin.
I am a child of God. My identity and hope is in having my name written in the book of life. I know where I'm headed and why I'm here for now.
I have a prophesy that I will "Delight in my children" and I know I will. I will obviously have more than one and I will delight in them. looking forward!
God was with me even in my darkest moments. And will always be.
I am no longer lost! and that's a wonderful feeling.