Bad Day Made Worse
So today I had to work from 7:00 in the mornin until 7:45 at night. that was just bad cuz it was sooo freaking long, and the hospital is busy as crap. but once that was done i went home and grabbed so manwhich and ate it. then after that i bounced on over to maris' house where we sat at her computer looking at pictures for a good 45 minutes. her new background of her computer is "angry vince" it is so hillarious. it is also her icon for her lj so if u want to see just look her up. well then i started talking to amanda on the phone and we got on the subject of chris cuz she yesterday's entry and she said she hopes he reads it. and i told her i wrote it because that is what i want to say to him but i cant. then we continued ourr convo about chris to the point where it made me cry cuz i am a big fat schmuck!!! amanda thinks that he is going to get over the stupid freshmen and "come back to me" and she said that if that happens she will kill me cuz he doesn't deserve me after everything hes put me through. you know this really sucks cuz i cant believe after everything i still have feeling for this ass. he hurt me bad last year by leading me on and then telling me he didnt like me then this year were dating and then he dumps me cuz he likes another girl, and yet i still have feelings for him. boys suck and they seriously need to die. amanda told me i need to move on and find another guy, someone who doesnt look like a 5-year-old, someone hot and who cares about me and wont dump me for an effing freshmen. but i dont want to move on i still like him. everything reminds me of him which sucks. i watched alex and emma last night and started crying. saw a sign for petruccis and got sad. what the crap is my problem we dated for 2 and a half weeks i shouldnt care. and yet i do. well maris and nadine and them r going to the val so im gonna go upstairs and wallow in my sadness and depression cuz there is no one home i can talk to. im gonna leave on this, the more i think about it the more i realize that im not good enough for chris thats y he dumped me. this jackie chick is better thats y he likes her and not me.
im dedicating this journal to any welcome distraction from chris...