I'm getting kind of fed up with myself. I spent so much time convincing myself that I'd get so much done, that I was going to be so productive, and here I am hiding from my homework. For some reason I get so scared that my photo's won't turn out how I want them to that I get too afraid to take them at all. Whenever I hear someone say something ( Read more... )

I seriously need to make a to-do list. I've just got so much little stuff that I need to/want to get done that I'm starting to lose track of it. I was feeling really productive this weekend but then Sam and Jasper came over and I didn't get anything done ( Read more... )

And I'm seriously afraid of fucking them up with my laziness. I always feel like I make a lot of plans that I never follow through on, but these days the plans are a lot bigger. They aren't fun things I want to learn over summer, they are life and career plans and whether or not I follow through will really make a difference in the course of things ( Read more... )

So even though I'm still pretty behind on my essay and not exactly doing the best job of remaining focused, I feel strangely at ease about it. I feel like I'm actually going to get it done despite my procrastination, and that it's not a big deal, it's just an essay. I'm not having any anxiety over it which is really a nice change of pace for me, ( Read more... )