Re: I'll reply more later...
anonymous
March 12 2006, 20:48:42 UTC
no no, tis good. I only got the one article. But, I think they think I am living in denial of what only they think I have.
MY problem in social skills is LACK OF CONFIDENCE. I've not had too many good or lasting moments. I am going to work on that.
HOW? Well, for one thing to just get back on the horse and ride! Asking girls out is scary. But, online friends think I am stunning (warning, 2 of them are British =p) so I might as well PRETEND to be confident and wantable! SO, I met this woman briefly at my temp job, last day Friday. I talked to her briefly Fri. morn. Her name is April, and she seems nice and she's prettiful. If ther is no beauty inside, beauty outside means little to me tho I notice and may complement. ANYWAYS the weird thing is that when I was in the car after work, I was looking down fiddling with my new cell phone, engrossed in it. My mind turned to her, and I wondered if I could see her one more time. I am not joking when I say I had an urge to look up even though I was in the middle ot workign iwth the cell, and ... THERE SHE WAS, as if I had conjured her or she was an angel that apparated to our plane for me. (apparated is a Harry Potter term, hee hee). Anyway, she smiled as she acknowledged my presence and I smiled back, maybe I waved too. BUT I FROZE I was just so surprised my little prayer had worked ... ask and ye shall receive ... too used to it not. So, I didnt' go after her =( Isn't that silly? How at moments fear and doubt can take hold? I admit, I am of two minds for even the simplest things. What if she had said no, but what if she had said YES? BUT I've decided to pray and hope God is kind enough to give me another chance. I want to turn in some of my good karma chits, please. I think I am going to call April at her place of work (I know that since I worked ther as a temp) and hope she is the ONLY April and ask her out for coffee! Once I make sure she remembers me and judge the tone of her voice, I am going to say something like this: "I don't mean to bother you at work, but you seem nice, and I was wondering if you'd like to go for some coffee Wednesday after work." DO you think that would be OK? I dont have lines, but I usualy can think of ways to start conversations with people and stuff. I just get nervous and less confident as the conversation goes on, isn't that weird? I jsut assume that it is going to be like all the rest and to instead keep this small victory and not ruin it. You know? Keep the 200 cash instead of trading it for what's behind door number 3, when it could very well be a zonker white elephant prize =( I am hoping she will think this is sweet, and be flattered I was thinking about her long after our brief conversation. Hopefully she thought I was cute and nice enough to want to get to know me a bit more, and most of all isn't with somebody serious right now OR IF SO is confortable enough to want to befriend me. Sure, I'd like a girlfriend, a partner, someone to know me and guide me to be the best I can be for God, but I don't think making new friends can be a bad thing! I prefer women anyway. It's harder for me to make friends with males.
do you think it sounds OK? I am going to just do it, not sure when to call, tho. I am going to be confident and smooth and ME!
MY problem in social skills is LACK OF CONFIDENCE. I've not had too many good or lasting moments. I am going to work on that.
HOW? Well, for one thing to just get back on the horse and ride! Asking girls out is scary. But, online friends think I am stunning (warning, 2 of them are British =p) so I might as well PRETEND to be confident and wantable!
SO, I met this woman briefly at my temp job, last day Friday. I talked to her briefly Fri. morn. Her name is April, and she seems nice and she's prettiful. If ther is no beauty inside, beauty outside means little to me tho I notice and may complement. ANYWAYS the weird thing is that when I was in the car after work, I was looking down fiddling with my new cell phone, engrossed in it. My mind turned to her, and I wondered if I could see her one more time. I am not joking when I say I had an urge to look up even though I was in the middle ot workign iwth the cell, and ... THERE SHE WAS, as if I had conjured her or she was an angel that apparated to our plane for me. (apparated is a Harry Potter term, hee hee). Anyway, she smiled as she acknowledged my presence and I smiled back, maybe I waved too.
BUT I FROZE
I was just so surprised my little prayer had worked ... ask and ye shall receive ... too used to it not. So, I didnt' go after her =(
Isn't that silly? How at moments fear and doubt can take hold?
I admit, I am of two minds for even the simplest things. What if she had said no, but what if she had said YES?
BUT I've decided to pray and hope God is kind enough to give me another chance. I want to turn in some of my good karma chits, please. I think I am going to call April at her place of work (I know that since I worked ther as a temp) and hope she is the ONLY April and ask her out for coffee!
Once I make sure she remembers me and judge the tone of her voice, I am going to say something like this:
"I don't mean to bother you at work, but you seem nice, and I was wondering if you'd like to go for some coffee Wednesday after work."
DO you think that would be OK? I dont have lines, but I usualy can think of ways to start conversations with people and stuff. I just get nervous and less confident as the conversation goes on, isn't that weird? I jsut assume that it is going to be like all the rest and to instead keep this small victory and not ruin it. You know? Keep the 200 cash instead of trading it for what's behind door number 3, when it could very well be a zonker white elephant prize =(
I am hoping she will think this is sweet, and be flattered I was thinking about her long after our brief conversation. Hopefully she thought I was cute and nice enough to want to get to know me a bit more, and most of all isn't with somebody serious right now OR IF SO is confortable enough to want to befriend me. Sure, I'd like a girlfriend, a partner, someone to know me and guide me to be the best I can be for God, but I don't think making new friends can be a bad thing! I prefer women anyway. It's harder for me to make friends with males.
do you think it sounds OK? I am going to just do it, not sure when to call, tho. I am going to be confident and smooth and ME!
*hugs*
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