Today is a good day. This morning I received word back from IPS to say I’ve reached the next stage of the process (whee!) and I also got one of my books in the post, an encyclopedia of beading techniques. It’s a fucking awesome book and it looks challenging enough to encourage me, not over the top to make me not want to try. I really want to do ( Read more... )

My dad really needs to learn how to clean, he threw about so much bleach today that my eyes were watering and I couldn’t breathe through my nose, all I could taste and smell and feel was bleach. It’s still there, I think the smell is on my clothes now. It smells like a fucking swimming pool in here ( Read more... )

Aw, I just found my favourite J20 hidden at the back of the fridge, num ( Read more... )

You know what I never believed? How Emma could ever appreciate her friends so much after her breakup. I just thought, surely you have to convince yourself that you appreciate their support because all you want is that other person instead. Really don’t you just want there to be no reason to need the support ( Read more... )

How public is this entry going to be? I have no idea. How many people do I want, actively, to piss off? None actually. Infact I've been doing just that this whole frickin time, not saying things, not defending myself, letting everyone else make a story that suits their purpose and shits all over me ( Read more... )

Yeah, after a bit of a cry and a big letter to Emma I feel a bit more human and calm. Don't know what happened there.... Don't know where to post the letter to....maybe just her home. If they even give it to her ( Read more... )

Meh, had a bit of a bad day today. How did I have such a thing? Well- it was just the way it went. Couldn't physically drag myself out of bed til after 3. Was just really down, wanted to go home and see Emma and not have responsibilities ( Read more... )

Myfeet are freezzzzing. And I was woken at about 6.25 this morning and then again at about 7.30- by that point I knew there would be no sleep for me. I don't know if it's a mouse or not- like there are 3 traps set in my room and the bait's still on them, and there's a trap not-set which still has bait on it....so I don't know. Hearing unexplainable ( Read more... )

I'm dying of pain, but thankfully Aine has painkillers- why is it that I have loads ofpainkillers and then when I actually have a headache or a migraine, NO PAINKILLERS ( Read more... )

Tomorrow the landlady is coming over to do something that I fail to see the point of. I told her we had mice and she said she’d come over…to do what exactly? Should we have saved up the bodies as proof ( Read more... )