So what now?!?
You know what sucks? When something seems very simple in theory, its almost black and white, you are as sure as you could be that you know the outcome but somehow it ends up going totally totally wrong. What’s even worse? When its important enough to really bother you, its not one of those things that you can just put on the back burner and you can’t just the subject pass and “talk about it later”. When you basically HAVE to explain why your pissed off cuz you just can’t believe its not blatantly obvious, and then you have to follow that up with what should have happened in the situation, at which point the entire situation is pretty much screwed because now ... now its all pointless. Even if what “should have happened” in the first place ends up happening now, its only because you had to point it out, which makes it an act of guilt and well, what’s the use if its not genuine. The entire situation ends up making you wonder where you stand after all. It’s true, you might talk the talk like a pro, but why is it you stumble when you try to walk the walk? Yeah I’m pissed ... maybe I shouldn’t be, honestly I can’t see why I wouldn’t be, why anyone in my shoes wouldn’t be for that matter. I wish I could act like I wasn’t, but lets be honest here .... I’m not very good at hiding my emotions, never have been and I don’t anticipate that I ever will be.