life
in life there are loosers and winners right now i am beginning to think that i am a looser. like the world is laughing at me and not with me. is it ok that anyone can come in and bother you and nothing is done about it. well where i work it is. i need help i dont know what to do i have nothing to give but yet i still manage to giveall i have to give. and people wonder why i am falling apart. i cant deal with this anymore it would be easy to just say the HELL with it and move on but i cant thats not me i need to make sure that the same thing doesnt happen to the next girl even if it kills me. i go to work and do my job i front days on end and when i need support it seems like it aint there. yeah i get support but i dont feel like i do. its times like this i wish Chris was around and i could just go and hide in the bed and he can come and fix it. i could never front to him. now i can do it to anybody just walking around with a smile and saying yeah i am good today. but really inside i am dying. i am being eaten to death with the decision did i do the right thing or did i not. i have no clue to what i should do. but i am going to fight it out if is the last thing that i do.