life
why is it that the one who cause the problems always get off free and clear. you know just for once i would like to be happy and not have to worry about anything. but that aint happening not today not next week maybe not ever. everyone keeps telling me that it will get better but when in ten years. why cant it be now in the presant. why does everyone get off better than me. dont get me wrong i like the things and the friends that i have in fact i love them but the ones that are causeing me the problems are making my life a LIVING HELL AND THAT IS THE TRUTH. what can i do to stop it NOT A DAMN THING. i could take myself out of the problem but then they would only win. those FOOLS they would win. i cant go to work with out feeling like i am being watched or go out with a guy without something being said. but in turn i have to keep quite about it all. everything bubbling up inside of just waiting to explode but i cant its not in me i have no fight left to give. my body doesnt have the energy to battle the one of the biggest battles that i have to win not only for my sake but for others for their safty and them being able to work without being afraid. its time to put it to a stop and for some odd reason i have to be the one to fight the battle all alone or that is how i feel at this moment in time. yes i know that i have friends to back me up and i am greatful for that but i feel so alone right now its not funny. i am told that i created the problem and that i should have to fix it but how do you fix a stalking problem i just want my battle to be over thats all