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man it was so sweet i made a snow sculpture in my front yard. mostly inspired by calvin and hobbes. i have been reading those comics alot lately. even though i am fifteen there are still some truths that i can see in them. they make me smile alot. yah i went to the school shrink today. it wasn't that bad. i think they think i have problems or something. both times a counselor called me in they brought up suicide but not in a blunt way but more like " have you ever had thoughts that you don't see the point in living" or something weird like that. yah it's kinda weird. before highschool i would have never thought that i would be seeing the highschool shrink. she even told me about therapists i could go see. i am not messed up enough that i need therapy. i just need some cigarettes, possibly some beer, and my best friends. then i am set. and it's not even the drugs that make me happy. that's just what me and teddy do. we smoke weed, (although teddy is quitting which is kinda a bummer cause now i got no one to smoke with) make food, and play videogames and i have been doing that since fifth grade and yet some how it never gets boring. yah it sucks though cause teddy got grounded till sunday so i don't really have anyone to hang out with. maybe i will call eric. he is a cool kid. but that also mean i won't be having cigarettes till sunday or even monday cause i get them from teddy. well it's gonna be a long weekend. oh well yah i decided i am not done rambling yet. hmmm i am still kinda freaked out about that whole seeing a therapist thing. i don't think i have problems. i just get sad sometimes. it always get's solved as soon as i start talking or being with people. i don't see what's the big deal. oh well it's is kinda nice to know that someone is always there to listen to your problems no matter how stupid and immature they may seem. well i oughta go to bed now. for some reason i am not looking forward to thanksgiving. i guess there is just other stuff i wanna do. oh well....