GIRLS! >: (]
Ok... so maybe I'm not ready to go to bed... maybe I just did something that made me see something, which made me think of something that made me horribly jealous and angry. Perhaps it is something that has happened before and so I don't feel at all justified in having the huge mood swing that seems to have been triggered at this moment which is a portion of why I'm talking in "maybies" and "might haves" and "perhapses."
D:<
I'm just really sick and tired of this idea of trying to find someone... Jaz was joking around and reading everyone their zodiac stuff and a lot of it rings true to each of us whether or not it's our sign, but we pay much closer attention to the things that some silly astrologist tells us about our romantic lives and how we lead them. So mine said a lot about how I'm vain and self centered in relationships, at least to start and then I'm all worried about equality and how that often keeps me from making up my damn mind. I know that the latter half is horribly true and accurate, you can give me your opinion of the first. To follow up on my first point it said I feel horribly out of balance when I'm not with someone (though good friends can often fill this balance) and I feel quite off kilter. It also said that were someone to want me the best way to make me come after them is to make me jealous and play keep away... also horribly true. It has also been what all four girls I've been attracted to this semester have been doing whether they are concious of it or not... and it's not just them doing it either. I feel like almost every girl that I've liked that has a relationship is grinding it into my face like a bloody pattie of raw ground beef.... AUGH! It's not their fault but it's still driving me nuts and I can't tell any of them what they're doing without feeling creepy, insecure and childish. So instead I'm just going to hate girls the way most girls hate boys and boys girls in elementry school. I stick out my tongue at you all! I'm done. Finished. Had it! All the girls in the world could die in a horrible volcano accident and I wouldn't turn my head to look... well except for the fact that I would be dying or dead too and not quite enjoying it. Good grief, sometimes I wish I loved the cock. Girls are poop-heads.
"You make me come/You make me complete/You make me completely miserable."-Lit "Miserable," A Place in the Sun
P.S. Kali, my warm puppy of love, you are my only exception to this horrible tragedy.
D:<
I'm just really sick and tired of this idea of trying to find someone... Jaz was joking around and reading everyone their zodiac stuff and a lot of it rings true to each of us whether or not it's our sign, but we pay much closer attention to the things that some silly astrologist tells us about our romantic lives and how we lead them. So mine said a lot about how I'm vain and self centered in relationships, at least to start and then I'm all worried about equality and how that often keeps me from making up my damn mind. I know that the latter half is horribly true and accurate, you can give me your opinion of the first. To follow up on my first point it said I feel horribly out of balance when I'm not with someone (though good friends can often fill this balance) and I feel quite off kilter. It also said that were someone to want me the best way to make me come after them is to make me jealous and play keep away... also horribly true. It has also been what all four girls I've been attracted to this semester have been doing whether they are concious of it or not... and it's not just them doing it either. I feel like almost every girl that I've liked that has a relationship is grinding it into my face like a bloody pattie of raw ground beef.... AUGH! It's not their fault but it's still driving me nuts and I can't tell any of them what they're doing without feeling creepy, insecure and childish. So instead I'm just going to hate girls the way most girls hate boys and boys girls in elementry school. I stick out my tongue at you all! I'm done. Finished. Had it! All the girls in the world could die in a horrible volcano accident and I wouldn't turn my head to look... well except for the fact that I would be dying or dead too and not quite enjoying it. Good grief, sometimes I wish I loved the cock. Girls are poop-heads.
"You make me come/You make me complete/You make me completely miserable."-Lit "Miserable," A Place in the Sun
P.S. Kali, my warm puppy of love, you are my only exception to this horrible tragedy.