Today Sucked
I've been feeling weird for the past couple of days. I describe it, the few times I talk about it, as feeling "down." I feel a mix of "waiting for something," "doing things I don't want to do," and "things could be better."
I teared up in the bathroom at school. It was strange. And I think the catalyst was the fact that I forgot my wallet at home. This is after I had to tell a classmate who let me borrow her book so that I could make copies for next week, that I lost her damn book. I don't think I could've left it in the scanner at the library, but I'm home now and I don't see it, and yep....I left it in the damn scanner. Ugh.
And I was thinking about my apartment that I need to sublease for Spring, and I've been thinking about this burden since about last month. I think it's resolved now, at least. I didn't find anyone, but I had prepaid February, March, and April, so if I let them keep the money and just pay December and January, then I'll be good. It'll be like I'm still living there (I'll have to keep the keys until the lease is up), but I just won't be there. And honestly that's better to me than the other options they were telling me, where I'd have to pay back the concessions they gave me when I signed the lease on top of any concessions they gave the subleaser they would have to find. What the fuck? No. I'd rather lose the money than have to keep in mind, while I'm away, what I owe them. Really. I'd rather just be done with them and move on.
There's also something weird going on with my financial aid wrt next semester and this intership I got, so you know. More wonderful stuff.