Thank you bus stop guy
as you can see in my rant two posts down, i was at a low point in terms
of faith in humanity. but that changed yesterday. i was having a
fucking awful day. i couldnt find my cell phone or my summer school ID,
the bus never came so i had to walk from 63rd avenue to bird,
while all the sidewalks were being redone, with a heavy ass backpack.
then to top it off, when i sat down to wait for the 40 bus, i knew i
was late. so i was basically angry and depressed.
This complete stranger noticed this and started talking to me to trying and raise my spirits, i told him why i was in summer school, and he told me why he was waiting for the bus (his wife and him were fighting, and she took his car keys with her to work?). i explained to him unwieghted and weighted GPA, and how i want to go to UF, we talked about politics. He told me that is was my responsiblity for failing math, but that i was a smart kid and that i should learn from it but move on, and that he was sure i'd become something. He told me that he wished he could have gone to college, but he had to work because his father left his family of 5 kids and his mother couldnt afford college. i could nt really say anything at that last part, because there's nothing to be said at that. we talked for about half an hour, so i didnt transcript everything obviously. But he was very smart, and really nice, because i know that if it had been reversed, i doubt i would have tried to chat up a big angry looking black kid. it struck me that the average person is really fundamentally decent, even if those in power have lost all decency. we make mistakes, but most of us are basically good people,it took him to show me this, when it should have been obvious. He might be "just" a Warehouse superviser who didnt go to college but he's a better man than i. it's a damn pity that he never got to go to college because i'm sure he would have flourished.
i never even got to know your name bustop guy and you never knew mine, but you did me an invaluable service, you reaffirmed my desire to not just chase the paycheck but to do something to help others. without you i would have probably stayed in the dark hole of cynicsm i had fallen into.
and to all the guys who read my journal, if you father a child, be a man and raise it, dont run away.
he kind of reminds me of ahmed
This complete stranger noticed this and started talking to me to trying and raise my spirits, i told him why i was in summer school, and he told me why he was waiting for the bus (his wife and him were fighting, and she took his car keys with her to work?). i explained to him unwieghted and weighted GPA, and how i want to go to UF, we talked about politics. He told me that is was my responsiblity for failing math, but that i was a smart kid and that i should learn from it but move on, and that he was sure i'd become something. He told me that he wished he could have gone to college, but he had to work because his father left his family of 5 kids and his mother couldnt afford college. i could nt really say anything at that last part, because there's nothing to be said at that. we talked for about half an hour, so i didnt transcript everything obviously. But he was very smart, and really nice, because i know that if it had been reversed, i doubt i would have tried to chat up a big angry looking black kid. it struck me that the average person is really fundamentally decent, even if those in power have lost all decency. we make mistakes, but most of us are basically good people,it took him to show me this, when it should have been obvious. He might be "just" a Warehouse superviser who didnt go to college but he's a better man than i. it's a damn pity that he never got to go to college because i'm sure he would have flourished.
i never even got to know your name bustop guy and you never knew mine, but you did me an invaluable service, you reaffirmed my desire to not just chase the paycheck but to do something to help others. without you i would have probably stayed in the dark hole of cynicsm i had fallen into.
and to all the guys who read my journal, if you father a child, be a man and raise it, dont run away.
he kind of reminds me of ahmed