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so we broke up. im sad, really. i kind of knew it was coming. actually, im kind of the one who made it happen. but i suppose that its for the better. he wasnt acting like much of a boyfriend. maybe it was just timing of things and locations, but i wasnt as happy as i could be, and thats what mattered.
he wants to still hang out and stuff. he said he still cares about me a lot. he flirted with me across the room. it was so wonderful. it made me realize that that is what i want. i want a boy that will flirt with me across a crowded room. hold me in his arms while we lay on his bed watching a movie. talk to me because he wants to...
i know ill be fine, and i know it was good that we didnt pretend to be perfectly happy when we werent. i didnt deal with bullshit this time around. i stood up for my feelings [(with help from bubba and pearl of course, without them, i honestly dont know if i could have done that...i would have let myself get walked on)]. i feel stronger, but i feel a little alone.
i miss him already.
i still wait on his calls.
*sigh*
i hope tone was right about me getting over things quickly. =(...
he wants to still hang out and stuff. he said he still cares about me a lot. he flirted with me across the room. it was so wonderful. it made me realize that that is what i want. i want a boy that will flirt with me across a crowded room. hold me in his arms while we lay on his bed watching a movie. talk to me because he wants to...
i know ill be fine, and i know it was good that we didnt pretend to be perfectly happy when we werent. i didnt deal with bullshit this time around. i stood up for my feelings [(with help from bubba and pearl of course, without them, i honestly dont know if i could have done that...i would have let myself get walked on)]. i feel stronger, but i feel a little alone.
i miss him already.
i still wait on his calls.
*sigh*
i hope tone was right about me getting over things quickly. =(...