Stress
I have so much crap to do before school starts back. It is really stressing me out. My parents still have my car so I have to get it back and then get the timing belt looked at, get it inspected, and get the oil changed. I have to buy books and school supplies, and get my student ID; buy clothes; and move into my apartment. I have to talk to the lawyer about my parents messing up my credit; attend some work related events, and just get into the overall mind set of going back to school.
I am joining the gym at work around the 1st of September because that is when the classes I like start up again. That will be good to be able to workout on a regular basis. I know I need it. I am doing ok as far as my eating plan goes. Not great though. Last week I think I finished a carton of EDY's lite ice cream in 4 days. My friend Amanda had like half a bowl but I ate the rest all by myself. Ice cream is my ultimate comfort food. And last week was just stressful. Finding out how much debt I am in because of my parents, and knowing that as far as the lease goes there is nothing I can do about it. I should have never let them put it in my name. But what was I supposed to do. Let them all be homeless.
Anyways in other news Sarah is not going to be going to school with me in Fall. I was really looking forward to it because I really wanted for someone to be on the journey with me. I also wanted to save on gas and to have a travel companion in commuting back and forth on the days I go to class. But maybe it is for the best. I know that she really cannot afford it right now, because she left John. And the boys have to be her first priority. There is no way that she can afford to not work for two days now that she will be paying for everything primarily by herself. Also I really need to learn to be more independent. And maybe this will be a good step for me.
I really love my job, but I have always just thought of it as a jumping off point. The hours are great for going to school and I really love that I get my 3 day weekend every other weekend. And of course the benefits are great. But I really need more money. The pay is ok for the kind of work that I do, but I want and need a lot of stuff. And since my program of study at UNCG is offered at night. I am considering finding another job after next Spring. I am really torn though because there are so many benefits to where I work. Hours, pay (compared to some places I have worked before), benefits etc are good especially since i really need to be focused on school right now. But if I worked somewhere else say a 7-3/8-4/9-5 job I would not have to take out loans to go to school, and could afford my own place instead of having a roommate. Which is what I am doing now although I really do not want to.
Either way I will just try and not think about it right now considering that it is like a year away. But that is one of my problems. I think WAY too much.
Anyways the shower and the bed are calling my name.
I am joining the gym at work around the 1st of September because that is when the classes I like start up again. That will be good to be able to workout on a regular basis. I know I need it. I am doing ok as far as my eating plan goes. Not great though. Last week I think I finished a carton of EDY's lite ice cream in 4 days. My friend Amanda had like half a bowl but I ate the rest all by myself. Ice cream is my ultimate comfort food. And last week was just stressful. Finding out how much debt I am in because of my parents, and knowing that as far as the lease goes there is nothing I can do about it. I should have never let them put it in my name. But what was I supposed to do. Let them all be homeless.
Anyways in other news Sarah is not going to be going to school with me in Fall. I was really looking forward to it because I really wanted for someone to be on the journey with me. I also wanted to save on gas and to have a travel companion in commuting back and forth on the days I go to class. But maybe it is for the best. I know that she really cannot afford it right now, because she left John. And the boys have to be her first priority. There is no way that she can afford to not work for two days now that she will be paying for everything primarily by herself. Also I really need to learn to be more independent. And maybe this will be a good step for me.
I really love my job, but I have always just thought of it as a jumping off point. The hours are great for going to school and I really love that I get my 3 day weekend every other weekend. And of course the benefits are great. But I really need more money. The pay is ok for the kind of work that I do, but I want and need a lot of stuff. And since my program of study at UNCG is offered at night. I am considering finding another job after next Spring. I am really torn though because there are so many benefits to where I work. Hours, pay (compared to some places I have worked before), benefits etc are good especially since i really need to be focused on school right now. But if I worked somewhere else say a 7-3/8-4/9-5 job I would not have to take out loans to go to school, and could afford my own place instead of having a roommate. Which is what I am doing now although I really do not want to.
Either way I will just try and not think about it right now considering that it is like a year away. But that is one of my problems. I think WAY too much.
Anyways the shower and the bed are calling my name.