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[angiethegreat]

i've been trying to update for about a week... it's been in "read only" mode. whatever. I'm at NIU now. I like it here i guess. It's nice to be away from home. It's not easy to make friends halfway through the year. so yeah. i live on an all girls floor. I thought it would be a good idea because boys are kind of icky. Well, i guess girls are bitchy. haha. so it was the first week of school and i was really sick and i was on my way back from the gym (omg, right?) and i was reading this thing my mom had sent me in the mail. I am the third door past the bathrooms. i didn't pay that close of attention and i accidentally walked into the room before mine. It was an honest mistake, but apparently it was a horrible terrible thing to do because instead of laugh, the girl that was sitting at her desk was super pissed and i apologized and left and then that night we had a fire drill and she told all her friends while they weren't that far away from me and they were all snickering and pointing and one girl was like "Omigod, what if you were NAKED!" and so now girls roll their eyes at me all the time and we saw this kristin girl (girl i walked in on) walking down to get food and the looked at me and was like "tshuh..." and proceeded to talk about me to whoever she was walking with. I seriously can't imagine anyone i know reacting like that. I can't imagine myself doing anything but laughing in that same situation... even if i was completely naked. I just don't get it. The whole floor is sorority girls. except for my roommate and like 2 other girls. Once i heard one of them yell, "ew, someone was pooping!" seriously. how can you deny that you poop? i'm sorry, but saying that you don't poop makes you much more of a freak than accidentally walking into the wrong room. i should have yelled back, "EW! you don't?!" because the idea is repulsive.

I don't really get along with my roommate either. eventually i have to make freinds... hopefullly. so yeah. that is what i've been up to. i miss having friends. not that i don't have any here, because i do have a couple. well, one really, besides john, and i just need girls. not having any girls that i can talk to makes me incredibly lonely at times. i'm gonna try to update more often. not because anyone cares, but because i love reading stuff from before... and remembering when things were better, or remembering how bad things could be.