Dec 04, 2003 01:52
I never how to start so I leave two lines open and I always intend to go back and write a fabulously intriguing first paragraph but that never happens and I end up using the second one as the first.
I love being all crazy in love right now. I just quoted Beyonce, didn't I? Oh well. I was torn for so many months and I never really wrote about it because, um, Fab once said (<333) that it's not easy to be in love with two different people for different reasons and I guess that's the understatement of the year but it gets the point across. And then I got with Jonny and I thought that was what I wanted but managed ending up hurting him instead. So that means no Christmas presents for me this year, I suppose. Now he's with his best friend and happier than I've seen him in a long time. And I have my little rockstar and that's definitely all I want. I'm just kidding, he's actually taller than me.
I'm completely obsessive about him. I can admit that, he thinks it's funny. Only that Portman chick seems to have caught on though and she's always teasing me about it. And Damon, I guess, but he doesn't like me anymore. Hi Damon. I didn't reply to your comment so this is for you: It's not that pretty but I'm keeping it for you as long as you're keeping mine, even if it's the wrong version and you're too stubborn to accept the good one. Dumbass. Kissy face. The other day I jumped on him and forced him down on the couch while explaining just how badly I would beat him if he left me for someone else but I don't think he believed me because he was laughing too much to seem frightened. And then he took me to his mother's for Thanksgiving like it was the most natural thing in the world. You know, you worry about all sorts of things. Like how I'm three years older than him and have a kid but then she acted like it was her long lost grandson and I cannot believe how generously that family has welcomed us.
I think my boyfriend is trying to set a world record by using my name as many times as humanly possible in one entry so maybe I should mention him once. Hi Julian. What else what else what else. It's late and can I please cut my hair soon? Directors, the rapunzel look is getting old.