Hard to Contain it All
I had fun this afternoon. I really did. It has been a long time since I pchatted, and it was with sorapple for the first time. Fun cracks never cease with her.
Then bad news came. There was an earthquake in Sumatra, Indonesia, 6:17pm. We could feel the tremor here. I mean, I didn't feel it because I wasn't paying attention, but I checked the news, and there it was. Talked with Bosco about it. And you know, if I were in Sarawak, I wouldn't have cared so much because it is almost completely safe there. But knowing that I'm in a place where I can feel all these things happening literally next to me, is kind of, well, heart-wrenching.
And it does not help that there was a tsunami in Samoa, and the storm in Philippines a few days ago. I've been reading news about all these things left and right, from people I follow on here or DA, or just on the news itself. I think after this evening, I just...broke. I can't stand it. Everything just happened so fast, and it hurts that I can't catch up. It's exactly like the time there was an earthquake in China. And thinking about how far apart I am from my family, my parents back home, Big Sis in Singapore, Bro some 30 minutes away... The fact that we aren't together, makes me fear for their lives every second. But this is the reason why I break down whenever I watch them go without me, just because I don't know if---well, I don't have to say anymore. Just. Ever since Grandpa passed away, I can't deal with these things as easily anymore. I'm a worry wart, I know. I can't help it.
But I talked to Mom just now, it makes me feel a little better. I'm trying to collect my emotions now, just to calm down so that I can concentrate on homework or something. I'm sorry, though. I had happier things to say, but the mood just isn't right anymore. I'll say it anyway, that I have been to the Curve yesterday, Bro drove us, and it was a disappointment. I like Midvalley better. Or maybe because it's a little lifeless since it's a weekday. But I bought the 10th and last book of Pendragon, and am reading it. Hope I can finish it on time to work on stuffs more important than this.
Then bad news came. There was an earthquake in Sumatra, Indonesia, 6:17pm. We could feel the tremor here. I mean, I didn't feel it because I wasn't paying attention, but I checked the news, and there it was. Talked with Bosco about it. And you know, if I were in Sarawak, I wouldn't have cared so much because it is almost completely safe there. But knowing that I'm in a place where I can feel all these things happening literally next to me, is kind of, well, heart-wrenching.
And it does not help that there was a tsunami in Samoa, and the storm in Philippines a few days ago. I've been reading news about all these things left and right, from people I follow on here or DA, or just on the news itself. I think after this evening, I just...broke. I can't stand it. Everything just happened so fast, and it hurts that I can't catch up. It's exactly like the time there was an earthquake in China. And thinking about how far apart I am from my family, my parents back home, Big Sis in Singapore, Bro some 30 minutes away... The fact that we aren't together, makes me fear for their lives every second. But this is the reason why I break down whenever I watch them go without me, just because I don't know if---well, I don't have to say anymore. Just. Ever since Grandpa passed away, I can't deal with these things as easily anymore. I'm a worry wart, I know. I can't help it.
But I talked to Mom just now, it makes me feel a little better. I'm trying to collect my emotions now, just to calm down so that I can concentrate on homework or something. I'm sorry, though. I had happier things to say, but the mood just isn't right anymore. I'll say it anyway, that I have been to the Curve yesterday, Bro drove us, and it was a disappointment. I like Midvalley better. Or maybe because it's a little lifeless since it's a weekday. But I bought the 10th and last book of Pendragon, and am reading it. Hope I can finish it on time to work on stuffs more important than this.