Annual Report (Kiddy is Good)
Ever since I'm a kid I write a document every birthday to testify on the latest advances and refusals to the ways of my contemporaneous environment. When I was 13 I wrote a treaty on the many reasons why I felt sorry for turning such terrible age as it meant I'd have to start acting like a woman, whatever that meant. Even then, I knew that I wouldn't let a number change who I am and I consider that, as far as my physics and psiche concerns, I'm very much the same person but with different experiences.
In the same fashion, I can only ratify what I find absolutely clear about my life. It's changed, indeed. Amazing things have happened and also terrible things, heartbreaking things. But above all it's such an egoist trancision to whatever part of my life is next. It's become a search for personal comfort, satisfaction, happiness and completeness. Goals I have managed to reach amazingly well and easily because, well, I'm happy with the great things going on right now, and I don't specifically mean the MUN or uni or whatever. It's got much more to do with closeness and relating, and familiar thoughts.
Whoever I am, I'm out of the contemporaneous context of my fellow 19ers, but not taken seriously by elders. People feel insulted when they hear things such as being a child is good like the Bible says; they feel insulted when they feel rejected or discriminated by their beliefs. Like not giving a coin to a homeless person because you don't know what it feels like to live in their shoes, there's no such thing as solidarity for a person deeply troubled because everyone puts their problems first but don't realize other's problems make them as helpless as themselves. In such case I'd be recommended to change and adapt to my times and partners, which I wouldn't do anyway, as the homeless person wouldn't get a job. We just can't.
I've traced a path and stubbornly plan to succeed in it. I don't want to fool around and would prefer to skip the stage of being fun-driven and wanting to pary, and get straight into my thing, not much further away but which leads to the things I pursue and not only drunk nights.
I'm going to bed now, a little po'ed but very strong-willed. Long live family goals and stability, independence and diplomacy.
In the same fashion, I can only ratify what I find absolutely clear about my life. It's changed, indeed. Amazing things have happened and also terrible things, heartbreaking things. But above all it's such an egoist trancision to whatever part of my life is next. It's become a search for personal comfort, satisfaction, happiness and completeness. Goals I have managed to reach amazingly well and easily because, well, I'm happy with the great things going on right now, and I don't specifically mean the MUN or uni or whatever. It's got much more to do with closeness and relating, and familiar thoughts.
Whoever I am, I'm out of the contemporaneous context of my fellow 19ers, but not taken seriously by elders. People feel insulted when they hear things such as being a child is good like the Bible says; they feel insulted when they feel rejected or discriminated by their beliefs. Like not giving a coin to a homeless person because you don't know what it feels like to live in their shoes, there's no such thing as solidarity for a person deeply troubled because everyone puts their problems first but don't realize other's problems make them as helpless as themselves. In such case I'd be recommended to change and adapt to my times and partners, which I wouldn't do anyway, as the homeless person wouldn't get a job. We just can't.
I've traced a path and stubbornly plan to succeed in it. I don't want to fool around and would prefer to skip the stage of being fun-driven and wanting to pary, and get straight into my thing, not much further away but which leads to the things I pursue and not only drunk nights.
I'm going to bed now, a little po'ed but very strong-willed. Long live family goals and stability, independence and diplomacy.