me and this.
I was distracted by the party. Relaxed. Garlic bread, garlic bread, garlic bread, ice cream. So much.
I woke up not feeling great but stuck to my routine. Worked out with Anje because it emphasizes balance and balance is my favorite. Jogged a couple miles with radiolab. Showered.
But my head, it's all about control. Losing it, keeping it, what I am and am not going to do, what extreme measures can be taken, what amount of journaling... how do I stop the compulsive behavior.
I came down the stairs realizing... I still have all this strength in my legs and my shoulders and my arms and my chest... I don't lose strength overnight. My muscles don't bail on me when I binge.
The only thing I lose overnight is my confidence in myself.
I can let my muscles be a letter from a more balanced voice in my head during these times when I lose it.
I woke up not feeling great but stuck to my routine. Worked out with Anje because it emphasizes balance and balance is my favorite. Jogged a couple miles with radiolab. Showered.
But my head, it's all about control. Losing it, keeping it, what I am and am not going to do, what extreme measures can be taken, what amount of journaling... how do I stop the compulsive behavior.
I came down the stairs realizing... I still have all this strength in my legs and my shoulders and my arms and my chest... I don't lose strength overnight. My muscles don't bail on me when I binge.
The only thing I lose overnight is my confidence in myself.
I can let my muscles be a letter from a more balanced voice in my head during these times when I lose it.