Distractions
Dear diary,
the best way to get over a heartbreak is to find someone new. for me that is true. I wanna see A so badly right now. i wonder what he sounds like. I want to hear his accent. I want to be with him. *Sigh* maybe i should just go out for a quickie with someone. wish some of my other guys are still around. I can always head over to citrus heights and see kevin if i want a quickie THAT badly. but I guess I'm still home so it means that I dont. I just want hot guys.
I know in the past i've been with guys that I thought was physically unattractive but I thought it's the inside that matters right? well, wrong. The entire time I was in those relationships, I have always wondered what it would be like if I really found my bf attractive. Well, I was able to find that out luckily. But unfortunately, even if they're attractive, i managed to sabotage the relationship just as well.
I should learn from my lessons. I never do. that's why I'm always going back to okcupid and finding a new set of guys to be with.
Will I ever learn? I hope so but most likely no. because I'm depressing like that. I wish A was online. I wish A and I were chatting on the phone. I want to see him. I wanna sleep with him. i wanna be in his arms and melted with his kisses. New relationships are always so much fun. I love it! I just get sick of a relationsihp that's been going on for a while. heh....maybe i should never get married and just go out with random guys forever. it keeps me sane and happy all at once.
the best way to get over a heartbreak is to find someone new. for me that is true. I wanna see A so badly right now. i wonder what he sounds like. I want to hear his accent. I want to be with him. *Sigh* maybe i should just go out for a quickie with someone. wish some of my other guys are still around. I can always head over to citrus heights and see kevin if i want a quickie THAT badly. but I guess I'm still home so it means that I dont. I just want hot guys.
I know in the past i've been with guys that I thought was physically unattractive but I thought it's the inside that matters right? well, wrong. The entire time I was in those relationships, I have always wondered what it would be like if I really found my bf attractive. Well, I was able to find that out luckily. But unfortunately, even if they're attractive, i managed to sabotage the relationship just as well.
I should learn from my lessons. I never do. that's why I'm always going back to okcupid and finding a new set of guys to be with.
Will I ever learn? I hope so but most likely no. because I'm depressing like that. I wish A was online. I wish A and I were chatting on the phone. I want to see him. I wanna sleep with him. i wanna be in his arms and melted with his kisses. New relationships are always so much fun. I love it! I just get sick of a relationsihp that's been going on for a while. heh....maybe i should never get married and just go out with random guys forever. it keeps me sane and happy all at once.