And today i end a 7 month silence....
So...in case any of you don't know by now...my lil' "i have another journal" thing was a crock...it was an ATTEMPT to get certain people to take a fucking hint at the fact that I needed THEM for a change....but it didn't work...so...in all that time since i've been gone (for those of you that don't know):
-I've gotten my own car and my driver's license
-I was briefly engaged
-I was possibly an expecting father
-I lost both the fiancee and the child (though the jury's still out wether that was a false alarm or not....i think...i can't remember..either way it hurt)
-In that time i managed to remember what it was like to be happy again....and once again i had it STRIPPED FROM ME!!!!!!!
-I was officially put on the clock at LP and am now making 11:10 an hour with full benefits (medical, dental, life insurance)...
-My Mom and Chip have seperated, though we are still (for now) living at his place....mom has gotten a job, but it's a shitty one...so this means that instead of getting my life together and actually starting to have one, i have to be the breadwinner for me, my mother, and my kid sister....once again I GET FUCKED OVER FOR SOMETHING I HAVE NO GOD DAMN CONTROL OVER!!!!
-And even though things were stressed for a while amongst myself and my now ex-fiancee, we are back on good terms again, which brings me to the real reason i've broken my silence...
It has come to my attention that my ex-fiancee now has a livejournal account...and it has also been brought to my attention the fact that she was told she should look back in my LJ (BY ONE OF MY OWN DAMN FRIENDS!!!) at some previous entries so that she could see what i wrote about her...anyone that's read my journal knows i hold nothing back in here....i write what i feel....and yes, i wrote what i felt about her in this entry...now allow me to clarify:
Star is in no way, shape, form, or fashion a bad mother...she is the world to anne, and anne is the world to her...she has proven herself time and time again, that she will put her daughter before ANY-DAMN-BODY on this planet...she's even sacrificed what she herself wants out of life because it would make her daughter's life too complicated....i know FULL GROWN PEOPLE that don't have that kind of resolve...so i was wrong in what i said in that entry....
but guess what....to the asshole that gave her that little "tip"...if your plan was to drive a wedge between myself and her, IT DIDN'T FUCKING WORK!!! I don't know what you people think about that, but after what i said in that entry, if she can still look at me with anything resembling good emotions, then that speaks volumes of the type of person she is....and to whoever it was that pointed her in that direction, i will find out who you are...and when i do, if i find out your intentions were to split me and another friend of mine up, then you have some SERIOUS FUCKING GROWING UP TO DO...last time i checked, i may not be the perfect man, but i'm man enough to make my own fucking decisions...i'll be DAMNED if i'll let somebody else do it for me...so when i find whoever the son of a bitch was that took it upon themselves to try to interferre in my life, we're gonna have a talk....you've been warned....
-The ride's runnin' again...we'll see where it goes from here...
-I've gotten my own car and my driver's license
-I was briefly engaged
-I was possibly an expecting father
-I lost both the fiancee and the child (though the jury's still out wether that was a false alarm or not....i think...i can't remember..either way it hurt)
-In that time i managed to remember what it was like to be happy again....and once again i had it STRIPPED FROM ME!!!!!!!
-I was officially put on the clock at LP and am now making 11:10 an hour with full benefits (medical, dental, life insurance)...
-My Mom and Chip have seperated, though we are still (for now) living at his place....mom has gotten a job, but it's a shitty one...so this means that instead of getting my life together and actually starting to have one, i have to be the breadwinner for me, my mother, and my kid sister....once again I GET FUCKED OVER FOR SOMETHING I HAVE NO GOD DAMN CONTROL OVER!!!!
-And even though things were stressed for a while amongst myself and my now ex-fiancee, we are back on good terms again, which brings me to the real reason i've broken my silence...
It has come to my attention that my ex-fiancee now has a livejournal account...and it has also been brought to my attention the fact that she was told she should look back in my LJ (BY ONE OF MY OWN DAMN FRIENDS!!!) at some previous entries so that she could see what i wrote about her...anyone that's read my journal knows i hold nothing back in here....i write what i feel....and yes, i wrote what i felt about her in this entry...now allow me to clarify:
Star is in no way, shape, form, or fashion a bad mother...she is the world to anne, and anne is the world to her...she has proven herself time and time again, that she will put her daughter before ANY-DAMN-BODY on this planet...she's even sacrificed what she herself wants out of life because it would make her daughter's life too complicated....i know FULL GROWN PEOPLE that don't have that kind of resolve...so i was wrong in what i said in that entry....
but guess what....to the asshole that gave her that little "tip"...if your plan was to drive a wedge between myself and her, IT DIDN'T FUCKING WORK!!! I don't know what you people think about that, but after what i said in that entry, if she can still look at me with anything resembling good emotions, then that speaks volumes of the type of person she is....and to whoever it was that pointed her in that direction, i will find out who you are...and when i do, if i find out your intentions were to split me and another friend of mine up, then you have some SERIOUS FUCKING GROWING UP TO DO...last time i checked, i may not be the perfect man, but i'm man enough to make my own fucking decisions...i'll be DAMNED if i'll let somebody else do it for me...so when i find whoever the son of a bitch was that took it upon themselves to try to interferre in my life, we're gonna have a talk....you've been warned....
-The ride's runnin' again...we'll see where it goes from here...