*-will i ever be the same-*
ok so a few days ago i found out that Tim is supposed to be leaving for Marine Basic Training in California one week from tomorrow! when i found that out i cried like a little baby! i'm crushed! i have no clue what to think! he wasn't supposed to be leaving untill september and now he is leaving in less than a month! its gonna be soo hard for me to let him go! but i have no choice! he's not even my boyfriend anymore and i'm still having trouble letting him go! i'm gonna miss every little thing about him! even him being a butthead sometimes! i'm gonna miss EVERYTHING! i just hope that he will write me or atleast call me when he comes back into town! i'm still gonna try and be there when he leaves! that would be the best thing to me! i'm gonna write him a letter and give it to him! i just hope that he actually reads it and believes what it says and doesn't throw it away or put it in the bottom of his bag and never read or most of all not believe what it says! because when i write him that letter i will mean every word that is in it! when he leaves i dont know that i will be the same person anymore! i dont know how i am going to react to not having him around anymore! i mean for the past 4 years he has been right there for me at all times and now for the next 4 years he will be no where around for anything! and that will hurt me soo bad! well i just hope that i can continue being the same person or an even better person knowing that he is over there and when he comes back there could always be the chance of us getting back together! now i can only wait and hope that he will realize how much i really love him!