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So we're officially done. I love him, more than i can really admit to myself, or to him. But i can't be with him if i know he's never going to want to be with just me. I know he loves me more than anyone else. And theoretically that should be enough. But there is something to be said about having the security and all that which comes with a relationship, and loving someone.
It hurts. My heart hurts. But if i stay with him i am always going to want more, and i'll never be truely happy. And that's not fair to want to change him. He needs to be loved by someone who will love him unconditionally. Someone who will be 100% happy with him. I know i can't say that.
I didn't mean to make him feel like he is all alone. He's not. I will always be there for him. I will always be his friend. But i cannot be with him.
I just feel horrible. I know i did the right thing, but it still doesn't make it feel any better.
I know this much, i'm always going to love him. Regardless of everything, i feel like he's one of the best people in the world. I just feel bad that i can't be everything he needed from me.
It hurts. My heart hurts. But if i stay with him i am always going to want more, and i'll never be truely happy. And that's not fair to want to change him. He needs to be loved by someone who will love him unconditionally. Someone who will be 100% happy with him. I know i can't say that.
I didn't mean to make him feel like he is all alone. He's not. I will always be there for him. I will always be his friend. But i cannot be with him.
I just feel horrible. I know i did the right thing, but it still doesn't make it feel any better.
I know this much, i'm always going to love him. Regardless of everything, i feel like he's one of the best people in the world. I just feel bad that i can't be everything he needed from me.