I'm learning... that's always awesome!
So a lot’s been going on. So much so I’ve neglected updating. I have been working full time and going to school full time. And normally I’d be stressed, not that I’m not stressed now… but it’s a good stress. It’s something I can handle. But the realization that I am going to move soon pushed one off the edge of my calendar. I quit my job yesterday. I’m not crazy but I needed a few weeks to get things organized for our move in with the in-laws. A couple of weeks to prepare my body for working graveyard again… because starting July 6th I will have an awesome new job. Police dispatcher, my dad’s happy of course. I like the idea of it. I’ll be paid way more than I have been before, benefits, closer to home, better schedule compared to the last and the best thing is there are no hard feelings with the job I just left. I was told that in the few months I worked there they were very impressed with me and would hire me back in a heartbeat if I wanted them to. So that’s good. in school news. I’m doing ok… missed a couple of days this past week because I wasn’t feeling quite myself. Probably the conflict in my head about quitting my current job to prepare for the next, and all the crap associated with the move and school above all. Speaking of school… wow I love my classes this semester. In History of England since 1689 I’m learning a lot about religious movements and the political power transferred from the crown to parliament and I’m actually really interested in it all. Especially learning about King Charles II of the Stuart Dynasty and how the UK came to be the UK. Learning about how the Methodist religion came to be, and the theories of the church. (sorry to bore anyone about this) In my other class, abnormal psychology… that’s like the sweetest class I’ve taken since Forensic Psych learning to profile serial killers. Abnormal psych is the core of psychology and learning why some people act the way they do. That’s my favorite part of Psych or even Sociology. I’m a people watcher. I observe behavior and wonder why some people join reality show’s and act the way they do? What would possess someone to show a side of them they’d probably not want people to see and if they did want an audience… why?
Our professor, Dr. Ernst, has to be one of the coolest guys on the planet! He’s awesome. I really think he truly understands the human mind and the behaviors of psychopaths and just odd people in general. Yesterday he spoke about personality disorders and mentioned one that stuck in my head only because I’ve known some people like this in my life. Borderline Personality Disorder: basically he said if we ever come across someone with this personality God help us! They are manipulative people who may see us as saints at first but the moment they get upset we are considered the devil incarnate. He talked about some of the criteria that qualify someone as BPD. I would absolutely hate to be someone like this. It must be miserable being them. They would need 5 or more of these issues to qualify… not all but at least 5.
o Highly sensitive to rejection and reacts with anger when a small separation keeps them longer than they’d like from their loved one like a business trip, vacation, or even change of plans.
o They are intense. They can love and adore someone including friends or family but if any situation causes them dislike they will write the person off for life. Nothing they do after will make up for what’s been done already. Black and white thinking of it’s all or nothing.
o Lack of commitment cannot be satisfied with the same person, place, or thing
o Inconsistency in behavior: i.e. bisexuality (not to say bisexuals have BPD) but they border on the idea of being bi, they have bi tendencies but only when it’s convenient for their situation. (see lack of commitment)
o Unstable self-image
o In at least two areas of just on the fly
§ Shopping or spending money in general
§ Sex
§ Substance abuse
§ Reckless driving
§ Binge eating
o This can include empty threats and gestures of suicide but not actually going through with it
o Any form of harming themselves physically on purpose
o Will last a few hours and rarely for a few days
§ Intense episodic dysphoria (i.e. unease depression)
§ Irritability
§ anxiety
o Frequent displays of temper
o Constant anger
o Recurrent physical fights
o Always feeling people won’t meet their expectations
o Believes that no one will be good enough for them and is constantly being harassed or persecuted.
o General suspiciousness of other’s intents or motives
o And sometimes will be out of it and not realize what’s going on
So of my two classes, I guess you can see which I love and understand more. A friend wanted to know what I was learning, so there you go...
Our professor, Dr. Ernst, has to be one of the coolest guys on the planet! He’s awesome. I really think he truly understands the human mind and the behaviors of psychopaths and just odd people in general. Yesterday he spoke about personality disorders and mentioned one that stuck in my head only because I’ve known some people like this in my life. Borderline Personality Disorder: basically he said if we ever come across someone with this personality God help us! They are manipulative people who may see us as saints at first but the moment they get upset we are considered the devil incarnate. He talked about some of the criteria that qualify someone as BPD. I would absolutely hate to be someone like this. It must be miserable being them. They would need 5 or more of these issues to qualify… not all but at least 5.
- Frantic efforts to avoid abandonment
o Highly sensitive to rejection and reacts with anger when a small separation keeps them longer than they’d like from their loved one like a business trip, vacation, or even change of plans.
- Unstable/intense interpersonal relationships
o They are intense. They can love and adore someone including friends or family but if any situation causes them dislike they will write the person off for life. Nothing they do after will make up for what’s been done already. Black and white thinking of it’s all or nothing.
- Identity disturbance
o Lack of commitment cannot be satisfied with the same person, place, or thing
o Inconsistency in behavior: i.e. bisexuality (not to say bisexuals have BPD) but they border on the idea of being bi, they have bi tendencies but only when it’s convenient for their situation. (see lack of commitment)
o Unstable self-image
- Impulsivity
o In at least two areas of just on the fly
§ Shopping or spending money in general
§ Sex
§ Substance abuse
§ Reckless driving
§ Binge eating
- Recurrent parasuicidal behaviors, self-mutilation
o This can include empty threats and gestures of suicide but not actually going through with it
o Any form of harming themselves physically on purpose
- Affective instability
o Will last a few hours and rarely for a few days
§ Intense episodic dysphoria (i.e. unease depression)
§ Irritability
§ anxiety
- Chronic feelings of emptiness
- Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger
o Frequent displays of temper
o Constant anger
o Recurrent physical fights
- Transient paranoid ideation and severe dissociative symptoms
o Always feeling people won’t meet their expectations
o Believes that no one will be good enough for them and is constantly being harassed or persecuted.
o General suspiciousness of other’s intents or motives
o And sometimes will be out of it and not realize what’s going on
So of my two classes, I guess you can see which I love and understand more. A friend wanted to know what I was learning, so there you go...