[Blackbird] Journal entry
Originally posted 2004-04-18 18:25:00
I went out on a limb to try to comfort someone in their grief today. I guess I should not have. Some wounds are too close, some indoctrination too tightly held on to that they cannot see the truth, no matter how it hurts.
The Traditions are as bad as the Union. They forgot the reason for the wonder and greatness of Man. Both have their vision and forgot they have everything to owe 'mere' humans. They both claim that all advancements came from them, that humanity cannot possibly choose it's own way.
They cannot see they have both been rejected by the Masses as too extreme. I wonder if once Magic and Science could have, together, worked for the end result of a better humanity. One teaching him to wonder about the unusual and the other teaching him to understand it and accept it and rise further.
This makes 4 people who know who I used to be, what I used to believe in and how I rejected the corruption and try to live true to the real Ideals. I suspect this last one will not keep his silence and will likely seek my life at some point. I had hoped that he instead would understand that while the Union has fallen far not all are the devils and Blacksuits he sees. I should not have spoken to a closed old man in the process of grief.
It is no wonder more have not left either side... if this is the greeting they get. I sorrow for Humanity because Avalon in all of it's forms has fallen far and can no longer remember their roles as protectors and inspiration. I sorrow for the potential lost because we cannot serve better.
***Correction*** make that 6 people who know and several who likely suspect. I should have kept my mouth shut. I shouldn't have tried to keep the memories of the dead safe by stopping them from vilifying the good men and women I know. Useless
I went out on a limb to try to comfort someone in their grief today. I guess I should not have. Some wounds are too close, some indoctrination too tightly held on to that they cannot see the truth, no matter how it hurts.
The Traditions are as bad as the Union. They forgot the reason for the wonder and greatness of Man. Both have their vision and forgot they have everything to owe 'mere' humans. They both claim that all advancements came from them, that humanity cannot possibly choose it's own way.
They cannot see they have both been rejected by the Masses as too extreme. I wonder if once Magic and Science could have, together, worked for the end result of a better humanity. One teaching him to wonder about the unusual and the other teaching him to understand it and accept it and rise further.
This makes 4 people who know who I used to be, what I used to believe in and how I rejected the corruption and try to live true to the real Ideals. I suspect this last one will not keep his silence and will likely seek my life at some point. I had hoped that he instead would understand that while the Union has fallen far not all are the devils and Blacksuits he sees. I should not have spoken to a closed old man in the process of grief.
It is no wonder more have not left either side... if this is the greeting they get. I sorrow for Humanity because Avalon in all of it's forms has fallen far and can no longer remember their roles as protectors and inspiration. I sorrow for the potential lost because we cannot serve better.
***Correction*** make that 6 people who know and several who likely suspect. I should have kept my mouth shut. I shouldn't have tried to keep the memories of the dead safe by stopping them from vilifying the good men and women I know. Useless