old poems I found on the IOS forum
I can feel the soil falling over my head
Stab your Salty nails into my Wounds
It doesn't Matter if You Hurt me more
They Always seem to Say That I'm Doomed
That there's nothing but Pain,Abuse and Betrayel for Me
Rip me Apart with your Fake caring Smile
It doesn't matter if you kill the Last Piece
Of this Empty Soul,which once was Full
This Caring heart,now drained and black as Tar
I've seen it All before in my haunting Dreams
Or was it for Real?
I've seen it all before in All my Years
Please let it be a bad Dream..
Laughter deafens my Painful Ears
Let them go Deaf on me!
Sickening Smiles Crush my Heart
Please let it Die on me!
And when You think about the World
In which I do struggle in As well
Do you feel right about Yourself?
Do you feel right About Yourself?
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Darkness sings to me now
Oh my Love how you've Crushed my Heart
The inner Cries of its Suffering Deafens Me
The sweetness of your Voice now Painful and Harsh
As I crashed upon your Rocks in Passionate Waves
Ever felt so Intense a Feeling it Rules All
Well this Broken Heart made it's Final Fall
Seal itself back behind the Walls it came From
And cower for Loves touch forever More..
See it Fade from Red to Grey
Like a Rose forever bleeding Colour
Untill nothing's Left then a Shadow of what was
And never will be, ever Again
Oh my Dearest,my Bitterness
How many Songs I could Devote to you now
Sing them with not a Single Tear on my Cheek
As I've done all my Crying long before You said No.
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Like Evgeny Onegin?
And so the Secret is still Untold and will hold it in My Heart Forever
Though it burns and Aches leaving Scars as a Trail to my Love
And I cry every night for my Tears are all I can give to your Picture
How I just long for you to See...
Do you have to be like Onegin?
Love me when it's too late?
I carry this burden Alone even if Others try to Ease
but the heaviest Sedation wont help me
And your voice Alone sends Shivers down my Spine
Your laughter ones rejoiced me now Tears me Apart
Do you have to be like Onegin?
Love me when you said Forget?
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Let go
Forever biting my Lip when Talking
Your voice Speaks to my Soul
Forever are my Hands bound Together
For Your Soul touches All
And I dare not to let it shine thru
But others are blinded by the light
And I'm scared I might loose You
Will my dream Ever come in sight?
Dreams that are so Real yet I wake up
Everlasting footprints in my Heart
They say Let Go and Dont give Up
Don't they see its so Hard
and there are others waiting in line
will I keep them forever waiting?
what if I change my mind?
What if my dreams will start Fading?
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Unsure of the Pure
Unsure of the Way
It tiptoes lightly in my Heart
It Dances freely in my Soul
Can not Catch it,Can not Stop
Scared of the Way
It butterfly kisses me
Haunts yet sets me Free
Seems to have a hold on Me
Dont let me Run Away
Dont tease but Invite me
Truely See me
Take Away that what frightens Me
And Stay.
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emotion sickness
safely trapped in an Illusion
every day's routine slights down
happiness; still no fusion
read between the lines of your frown
what colour was my heart again
did you ever say you loved me?
find my true self in the tears
and harsh memories of Pain
bonds rust away in the night
flakes of paint cover your eyes
see the sparkle lose its bling
cuts r too deep to b mended
emotion sickness fills my soul
past blackness overcomes me still
i try to light up my world
but it always seems to rain here
are changes needed to escape
this dread and depression i am feeling
scars still haunt my thoughts
will I ever have enough healing?