Rainbow Flyer
I feel amazing. Throw me into the wind and I just might fly. This week had a craptastic start but it finished pretty nicely. I feel happier in these recent days than I have in most of my life. Tis a good change. I'm kinda tired and I should be studying but I'd rather be rolling right now. Or lying in a nice sunny green field. Since the idea was given to me I'm going to run with it. I'm going to pick up a few books and enter into this novel contest thingie. Whether it flops or soars it won't bother me much I just want to do something. And yeah there was absolutely no segue there. I want to pet someone. Le sigh I really should be studying and I can't find any Kasabian music and I WANTS it. Prolly cuz that name is spelled wrong I dunno. So my roomie strolls in smelling of captial city and pot. Moments earlier I was cursing the heavens cuz I couldn't get into my room while she was out creating potential people accidents. I pray to God that doesn't happen. Pregnant women make me very very nervous. So much study time wasted and I have no will for it now. Meh it happens. I just hope the faith of one gets me through.
Well I am loved. I can get through anything. Love is like consciousness they are both fatal diseases we all at some point need to infect ourselves with. I like this sickness. I wish I'd been touched by it earlier in life. I'm grateful for my enlightenment but it was a bad idea of the universe to give a small child the insight of an 90-year old. BAD IDEA. I miss my mom. She's been calling me alot lately I think she misses me too. But it's some comfort to know that those calls are her way of saying 'I love you' because I can only recall a handful of times in my life when she's said that to me seriously. I want to cuddle with someone. A few people I have particularly in mind but two I'll never see again and the other's anti-cuddling the last time I checked. A hug with do just fine. I can at least get that as well as unexpected butt sex. . .wait. . .
I need to call my little sister. But I'm not sure if I should really involve myself in her life because after college and medschool I'm going to have to leave the family. Well yeah I should at least for the time we can stay together I should fill her head with happy memories.
Life is weird when you're a minority for times over. Regardless of whether or not it's permanent. Either way I'm slowing but surely becoming happy with all of me. *huggles the world*
Well I am loved. I can get through anything. Love is like consciousness they are both fatal diseases we all at some point need to infect ourselves with. I like this sickness. I wish I'd been touched by it earlier in life. I'm grateful for my enlightenment but it was a bad idea of the universe to give a small child the insight of an 90-year old. BAD IDEA. I miss my mom. She's been calling me alot lately I think she misses me too. But it's some comfort to know that those calls are her way of saying 'I love you' because I can only recall a handful of times in my life when she's said that to me seriously. I want to cuddle with someone. A few people I have particularly in mind but two I'll never see again and the other's anti-cuddling the last time I checked. A hug with do just fine. I can at least get that as well as unexpected butt sex. . .wait. . .
I need to call my little sister. But I'm not sure if I should really involve myself in her life because after college and medschool I'm going to have to leave the family. Well yeah I should at least for the time we can stay together I should fill her head with happy memories.
Life is weird when you're a minority for times over. Regardless of whether or not it's permanent. Either way I'm slowing but surely becoming happy with all of me. *huggles the world*