7/14/06
I broke up with matt march 4th 2008... finally realized that i was either gunna end up killing myself over him or just walk away with what self respect i had left... girls tend to forget that there is more out there, then who we are with. I've come to realize that if im not being mistreated in a relationship then im bored... i finally got a bf that is so incredibly sweet and there for me and i sometimes just feel like i wanna start fighting to get interesting... i almost fell into matts tricks when he wanted me back. thankfully i stuck to my guns and stayed away. Ur first true love is the one thats always the hardest the over come. but in all honesty, i have no clue as to why i loved him the first place... i mean he was nice to me enough to keep me with him, but cruel enough to make me start taking anti depressants... I just pray that the next girl has enough since to known that hes a compulsive liar and that no matter how many times he lies or yells are you, he will never stop.It will go on for as long as u let it. haha, oh yeah and i failed to mention this, the good CHRISTIAN boy ruitine is just that...its a front ladies... hes the biggest hypocrite ive ever incountered in my life, just ask his sister. if u treat ur girl so bad that ur own friends, sister and family start to turn against u, ummm maybe there is a problem. When i finally started standing up for myself he didnt like that at all... and when he saw me with someone else, he tried his damnest to get me back. Funny how that works. But ive got friends now that would kill for me, a guy who loves me a lot, and i got girl friends who for once, dont make a point to stab u in the back. Growing up is hard as hell at times, but ive learned more in these last couple years then ever. I can almost predict when something will happen in relationships, and to friends. My girl friends look up to me for advice even those who are older then me. Interesting huh? All i can say is ladies if there is ever a guy or girl or anyone who bothers u so badly that it makes u stressed and depressed, do something about and say something bout it, they wont know what hit them if u do.