I just dont know anymore
I used to think I had it all but in the past few motnhs there have been things showing me that there is so much more and then I have done nothing with my life.
I graduated High school, I should have done better so that I could have gone away to college and start a life that I am proud of. But I did not and now I am still in Germantown being a receptionist. Now dont get me wrong I love my job and the people I work with and the money I make. But I think that I might need more. . That I deserve more. I have a sister who is so sucseful and she is everything I want to be. She is mother of 2 great children. She has a full time Job a home to call her own and a pretty good marrige. I hope at her age I can be as happy as her. Lately I have had alot of time to think of my life. and the mistakes I have made. Once again I am not gonna complain. I have great friends and a guy I think that cares about me (untill he decides to leave to) I want to be happy and I think the only way to do that is to leave and start fresh and new. and not worry about everything else.
I am done ranting I just wanted to get all of that off my chest. I want a good life. I want to be happy and proud of my self.
I JUST DONT KNOW ANYMORE!
I graduated High school, I should have done better so that I could have gone away to college and start a life that I am proud of. But I did not and now I am still in Germantown being a receptionist. Now dont get me wrong I love my job and the people I work with and the money I make. But I think that I might need more. . That I deserve more. I have a sister who is so sucseful and she is everything I want to be. She is mother of 2 great children. She has a full time Job a home to call her own and a pretty good marrige. I hope at her age I can be as happy as her. Lately I have had alot of time to think of my life. and the mistakes I have made. Once again I am not gonna complain. I have great friends and a guy I think that cares about me (untill he decides to leave to) I want to be happy and I think the only way to do that is to leave and start fresh and new. and not worry about everything else.
I am done ranting I just wanted to get all of that off my chest. I want a good life. I want to be happy and proud of my self.
I JUST DONT KNOW ANYMORE!