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So last thursday I am hanging out with friends. . had a few drinks. . maybe some pills. . and then I got all shakey and gross so I think to my self kelly no more pills and no more drinks. . drink water and you will be fine.
So I leave those friends to go see my twin (colin) and my best friend (Jenny bear) I get in the car and I start to drive. . . all of a sudden I feel shakey and I cant breath so I am thinking you are juts imaging it. .
I get to jennys and I cant breath. . and I break down. . and I just start pouring my whole fucking heart out about everything. . . and crying and smoking like 50 cigs at a time. And that boys and girls is called
A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN!
I got up this morning still feeling like shit. and thinking about my life. and I just wish there could be something done to make me feel better. . when I am with friends and having a good time then I am ok. . but I am alone I think and I feel like my heart is gonna come out of my fucking chest. . and I need a FUCKING paper bag. . . I dont know how to make it better. . but I will. . if anyone has any suggestions I would LOVE to hear them!
I guess this is what happens when you keep everything to your self. . and ALWAYS have a smile on your face no matter what is wrong. . evetually you will burst!
BLAH
So I leave those friends to go see my twin (colin) and my best friend (Jenny bear) I get in the car and I start to drive. . . all of a sudden I feel shakey and I cant breath so I am thinking you are juts imaging it. .
I get to jennys and I cant breath. . and I break down. . and I just start pouring my whole fucking heart out about everything. . . and crying and smoking like 50 cigs at a time. And that boys and girls is called
A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN!
I got up this morning still feeling like shit. and thinking about my life. and I just wish there could be something done to make me feel better. . when I am with friends and having a good time then I am ok. . but I am alone I think and I feel like my heart is gonna come out of my fucking chest. . and I need a FUCKING paper bag. . . I dont know how to make it better. . but I will. . if anyone has any suggestions I would LOVE to hear them!
I guess this is what happens when you keep everything to your self. . and ALWAYS have a smile on your face no matter what is wrong. . evetually you will burst!
BLAH