things i love thursday
<3 challenging myself to get out of negative thought-patterns! releasing, letting go of, making the very best of... everything. and remembering everything amazing and magical in my life that i should be (and am) eternally grateful for.
<3 hearing my baby's heartbeat today. what a beautiful sound..
<3 talking to my doctor about my birth plan, and having it all go completely smoothly and wonderful! my doctor is all for natural birth, without any interventions unless absolutely necessary for my and baby's safety. he's probably not going to be there for my birth, but he told me that all of his partners are like-minded, and i'm planning on meeting the other doctor who might be at my delivery, so it's all feels perfect. he's going to let me keep my placenta (which was a must for me.. i have special plans for it), does not believe in circumcision, and will let me give birth in whatever position i choose. i'm so thankful for this kind of medical care! i promised myself that if my doctor wasn't in tune with my birth wishes, that i would plan for a home birth. i don't truly want to do it in a hospital, but it sounds like it will be a beautiful and freeing experience regardless.
<3 plans for a haircut and dye job. i'm hoping to dye my hair all one color, the color of my natural hair. i also would love to get side-swept bangs.. something that would be new and different. i haven't had my hair done in a long time, so this is exciting for me... i'm a taurus, i truly love beauty.. what can i say..
<3 baby shower on saturday with mandie. while i'm not feeling 100% in-tune with it, i am excited to have so many lovely people coming. that's the only part that truly matters to me. the shower is not quite what i envisioned wanting for myself, but it is something mandie wanted to share and plan with me, so i'm open to having it differently.. i know it will be fun, no matter how cheesy and silly it might turn out. but i am grateful.. more than anything i'm grateful. my mama created beautiful invitations for it, mandie's fiance's mama is going to be cooking all the food, mandie put a lot of effort into planning the games and decorations and prizes.. i helped too of course, but many people have put a lot of loving effort into this. not every expecting mama even gets a shower, so i'm just appreciative that it's taking place. <333
<3 books! particularly, ina may's guide to childbirth.. wonderful! i have never learned so much about birth and pregnancy through a book before..
<3 redecorating the house with faeries, mermaids, gemstones, magical creatures, and bouquets from the garden... it feels more like home now then ever. i know it's only a temporary place.. not truly one of my own, but i might as well decorate it beautifully while i'm here, right? it will be much more of a magical place for onyx's arrival.
<3 the arrival of abundance from unexpected places.. the universe is so sneaky! you never know quite what to expect next.. and that is a wonderful thing for sure!
<3 thinking of marley, and still wanting to cry, but in a good kind of way... almost like when you see something so beautiful and delicate, like a tiny flower or a baby butterfly, and you want to cry over its sheer existance..
<3 being active! going to yoga class (which i might add, i took part in some strange, wonderful things last time i went!), doing productive chores around the home, teaching ballet, stretching, swimming..
<3 possibly having a doula.. oh yay <3 the universe knew exactly what i wanted, and gave it to me wrapped up in such a wonderful surprise.
<3 watching my diva kitties. my black cat is so mellow.. so calm and sweet. he only gets defensive every one in a while over food, but my other two kitties, the girls.. they are such crazy kitties! they are both very stubborn, can be very cranky, and believe they both should be the alpha-cat. they were watching a cat out the window the other day, and they got so mad at each other because they were in very close proximity together.. there was a lot of hissing, growling, and slapping, and i was just thinking how glad i was that they don't have claws to hurt each other with. very angry, insistent kitties! it's actually very funny to watch..
<3 spending time with my beautiful friend natalie again.. she just got out of a relationship, and we've been hanging out again. it's been lovely. <333