The Countdown begins again
I just got back this afternoon from Mississippi... I will never ever go there again! The only good thing about the state was Brian! It was so awesome to see him though... so weird to! I was like it is really u??? In person? and not on the phone! It feels crazy. I have never experienced emotions like I do with him. It's like he opens up this part of me that I never knew existed. I know that theres no one else in the world that could possibly make me feel even a fraction of what he does for me. People may think im nuts but I dont care... I know that im gunna spend the rest of my life with him. There is no doubt in my mind. He is perfect for me in everyway! Its just 24 days until I get to see him again.
We're gunna go to Disney when he comes back... we already made hotel reservations and everything. The Hotel he got in Mississippi for us was wonderful. We went out to a few places... out to eat, the mall, the carnival and a bar. I could be anywhere in the world with him and it doesnt matter... as long as he's there im having the best time of my life. It sucks seeing him for such a short amount of time... I feel like I just got him back and now he's gone all over again. It feels empty inside. :( Saying goodbye, ofcourse, was the hardest part. I was doing okay until I walked through security in the airport... then I lost it and started to cry when I sat down... but I stuck it out! But ofcourse when I borded the plane... I lost it again! I don't even wanna think about how I'm gunna react when I have to say goodbye to him when he leaves for afghanistan.
Just got off the phone with him. I can't even believe that God put him in my life. I feel like I don't deserve him. I just pray I never lose him. I can't even look at another guy in the same way anymore... I know in my heart that nobody in the world could ever compare to him. He was made especially for me... and detailed especially for me. Theres still nothing about him that I would change.
I just hope that this month goes by fast. The way he makes me feel is still fresh in my head. I can still imagine him being here. When I can do that, it only makes me miss him more. It hurts so bad to be so in love with someone who's so out of reach.
We're gunna go to Disney when he comes back... we already made hotel reservations and everything. The Hotel he got in Mississippi for us was wonderful. We went out to a few places... out to eat, the mall, the carnival and a bar. I could be anywhere in the world with him and it doesnt matter... as long as he's there im having the best time of my life. It sucks seeing him for such a short amount of time... I feel like I just got him back and now he's gone all over again. It feels empty inside. :( Saying goodbye, ofcourse, was the hardest part. I was doing okay until I walked through security in the airport... then I lost it and started to cry when I sat down... but I stuck it out! But ofcourse when I borded the plane... I lost it again! I don't even wanna think about how I'm gunna react when I have to say goodbye to him when he leaves for afghanistan.
Just got off the phone with him. I can't even believe that God put him in my life. I feel like I don't deserve him. I just pray I never lose him. I can't even look at another guy in the same way anymore... I know in my heart that nobody in the world could ever compare to him. He was made especially for me... and detailed especially for me. Theres still nothing about him that I would change.
I just hope that this month goes by fast. The way he makes me feel is still fresh in my head. I can still imagine him being here. When I can do that, it only makes me miss him more. It hurts so bad to be so in love with someone who's so out of reach.