May 20, 2005 21:10
I was suppose to go to the mall today with Richelle... but her ass stood me up! God that aggravates me! I'm not gunna let it get to me though... Lindsays gunna go with me on Sunday and help me pick of my lil outfit. I'm gunna go over to Lindsays tonight... she will make me feel better! Richelle has been texting me all night apoligizing. I'm not mad about it... I don't know why I cant get mad at people! But tonight I dont feel as forgiving as usual for some reason... that happens to me every once in a while... it passes pretty quick. It's just so much built up inside of me that I usually let pass and try not to get worked up about it. Now I just don't even care anymore! I don't like feeling this way... I love being able to be myself and be happy with everyone... but theres only so much I can hold.
Just a week until I get to see my baby... I wish he were here with me now... he would make me feel better.