it is the price i pay...
so i followed a friends advice and told the one that i am madly in love with how i truly felt about her. there is a problem though, she had a boyfriend. not only do i know this boyfriend, since middle school and was really good friends with him, but no, i am even related to him. we are distant cousins. i will admit, at one point in time, i actually had respect for him. but that all changed when he braged about being with the girl that i liked and about all the other girls that both of us have liked. but the one he is with now is different. i have liked her since the first day that i laid my eyes on her. its as if the first time i seen her i was like,"she is the one i have been waiting for all of my life." and i know that i am only 19 and i really should not feel that way about anybody yet. but i do. and to be honest, i was crushed when she told me she was going to be with my good old cousin. now don't get me wrong, he is my cousin and i am loyal to family, but how loyal could i be to someone like him. someone who would blatenly rub in my face that he was with her. and to be so cocky about it. i hate it when people feel like they are better than others. another reason why i never really got along with any cheerleader or prep. anyways. i told her how i felt, she told me not to change the way i felt and that she felt secure with me. she also said that she should break up with her boyfriend. what is there for me to do? she said friendship is forever. that is true. i wont take that from her. but love can also be forever. that is exactly where i come from. my love for her...is forever.
raven
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