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For some reason, this week has been entirely too stressful. It's almost as if I made things more complicated in my mind than they really were. I don't know why school is stressing me so much, cuz for once, I'm kicking ass in all of my major classes.
I think what's really bothering me is that things are working out better than planned [i.e. i will graduate May2007 rather than August2007], and now I want those plans to change.
-I wanna move out earlier....but then I won't have health insurance.
-If I get married earlier, I will have that insurance through Robert.
-If I have that insurance and I'm moved out, I have less money to pay my loans.
-If I have less money to pay off school loans, I need a second job on top of school.
-In which case, would defeat the purpose of moving out, as I would have no time to even be at home with Robert.
I know that all my friends have bigger worries than when they are getting married, or when they are going to move out,or how they're gonna pass school or pay for it, or in some cases, how they are gonna take care of their children. But these are my worries, no matter how unimportant.
I just wish it were easier, I guess. I mean, not that I'm unhappy, I guess I'm just in a rush to live my own life like so many of my friends already are. For goodness sake, my 20 year old cousin just BOUGHT a house. How unnerving is that? He's five months older than I am and here he is, his own house, getting married next June.
Why is it that those of us [the majority of my LJ friends included] who worked so hard through high school (because we were told it would make our lives easier and college would make us independent) are still stuck being broke college students, leading shitty, stressful lives, working at stupid jobs, and are still living with our damn parents? All the while, the slackers are still fucking slacking and somehow making it better than us. I have seen a few people from high school who are getting paid better than I, doing less work, not paying for school, and already have their own place. UGH!
Anyways, I just needed to update cuz a lot of things have been changing on my side of the keyboard, and all I can do is vent my stresses. Bear with me, I know it sucks to read the same shit over and over.
On a brighter note, it is time for bed! I've waited for this moment for far too long today!