Apple Crumble & a Sudden Realization
I got a bad craving for apple crumble -_- Haven't had the time to bake one yet...
Went on an apple crumble hunt last night with Kim Yan, YY and Serene. *laughs* We walked all the way to opposite International Plaza just to get to Hans... Only to find it closed! It was one of the only places I remembered had okay apple crumble, since Mum buys it from Hans quite often.
Bought one from Blue Mist in the end. But it was way too sloggy.
I still want my apple crumble :(
It was SK graduation last night. Stayed back to take a look, catch up with some people I don't get to meet often, and also to accompany Kim Yan in a way (: Long story. Haha~
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Overslept for about 30 minutes this morning. Ooops.
I thought I had recovered from my mini depression. Haven't been feeling great recently and been thinking way too much. I think it shows on my face; a colleague just asked if I haven't been sleeping well. Eyebags are a dead give away...
While waiting for the MRT this morning and listening to my mp3 player, the song Save You by Simple Plan started playing. Once again, realised I have fallen back into the old habit of standing alone to face the world. Everything started falling apart unconsciously, bit by bit... until recently I began wondering - where did the peace I once felt not so long ago went to?
It also dawned on me. I've been numbing myself from a lot of things, especially negative emotions. Turned them to indifference, or made them more 'positive' and 'correct'. In fear of having nasty thoughts. In fear of doing or saying things that hurt people. But I've forgotten that it as okay to feel. Feelings do not equate to actions. Somehow, along the way... it got mixed up. Don't know when it started, but have a feeling it was from years back.
I need time to sort things out...
Went on an apple crumble hunt last night with Kim Yan, YY and Serene. *laughs* We walked all the way to opposite International Plaza just to get to Hans... Only to find it closed! It was one of the only places I remembered had okay apple crumble, since Mum buys it from Hans quite often.
Bought one from Blue Mist in the end. But it was way too sloggy.
I still want my apple crumble :(
It was SK graduation last night. Stayed back to take a look, catch up with some people I don't get to meet often, and also to accompany Kim Yan in a way (: Long story. Haha~
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Overslept for about 30 minutes this morning. Ooops.
I thought I had recovered from my mini depression. Haven't been feeling great recently and been thinking way too much. I think it shows on my face; a colleague just asked if I haven't been sleeping well. Eyebags are a dead give away...
While waiting for the MRT this morning and listening to my mp3 player, the song Save You by Simple Plan started playing. Once again, realised I have fallen back into the old habit of standing alone to face the world. Everything started falling apart unconsciously, bit by bit... until recently I began wondering - where did the peace I once felt not so long ago went to?
It also dawned on me. I've been numbing myself from a lot of things, especially negative emotions. Turned them to indifference, or made them more 'positive' and 'correct'. In fear of having nasty thoughts. In fear of doing or saying things that hurt people. But I've forgotten that it as okay to feel. Feelings do not equate to actions. Somehow, along the way... it got mixed up. Don't know when it started, but have a feeling it was from years back.
I need time to sort things out...