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So, what an exciting time it has been in my life. Not much has gone right that I don't know where to begin. Lets start with the fact that I am now in Arizona. To catch up on the bills I have from my dad not paying my tuition I have moved out here to live with my sister rent free while I save up enough money to pay off my bills and return to Illinois. I love my sister, but I miss home so much. I miss Brian enough that I could start crying at any moment. Next, none of my friends are apparently talking to me. With the exception of a select few none of my Florida friends have been returing my calls. My Illinois clan have all stopped speaking to me because they realized that they didn't want me in the drama that they had already included me in. *Cindy decided that after months of critizing her cousin for cheating on husband, she herself decided it was a good idea to sleep with the cousin's husband. And of course didn't think she was doing anything wrong. But, I guess it is my problem that she told me about it, and now no one in McHenry county will talk to me because I am a "Backstabbing Bitch" for knowing about it.* But the number one best thing about my holidays was my brother calling me on Christmas morning and telling me that my father called him a peice of shit and never wants to talk to him again. Granted my dad hasn't talked to me since a week before Christmas. I had been told that my dad and step-mother are getting a divorce and that he blames my brother and I for their problems. And today I find out that my dad and Dawn have decided to give it another go, as long as he agrees never to talk to us again. So, now I have lost my future, my friends, and now finally both of my parents in a matter of two weeks. For those who claim to still be my friends and yet have had no time to actually talk to me.... I give up. It hurts a lot less to turn my backs on you instead of anyone else turning their backs on me. I am sorry, but at this point I couldn't care less what happens to me, or care if y'all care. But, I still do wish that everyone be happy and continue to be happy. I wouldn't wish my life on anyone. Here's to having a better year that the last......