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[the_god_illyria]

As I walked out that hallway, I succumbed to the shell’s form. I had to be careful not to be seen in my glorious form, as this would bring a most unwelcome attention to me. And that was something I could not afford at the moment. I could hear Buffy saying something to her friends in the distance. But I did not cared to listen in; I just wanted

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[angelbuffy]

I walked swiftly out of the doors, that the bell man so graciousley held for me. My anger was so complicated, and high, that I didn't even say thank you. Just followed her, and stopped next to her. she seemed somewhat content for the time being. I looked out into the seemly empty sky. Los Angeles was completely empty without it's champions.

I thought that maybe Xander and this whole hide and seek deal with Angel and Spike was connected, somehow. I was getting a little bit pissed off at the fact that everything is not going the way planned. Everything seemed to have it's obstacle. Welcome back to California, Buffy.

“You know this place better than I. Where shall we go first?”I probably knew this place as much as she did. The only part of LA that I actually knew was Hemry..miles away from this original city. But I continued, pretending that I knew where it was.. Like I had the upper hand. The best place to start would probably be where I had planned on going first

[the_god_illyria]

"The Hyperion first. After all, isn't that where you guys performed the spell?"

I looked at her as she spoke these words. She was right. That was a good place to start looking for any clues. Perhaps it could tell us what exactly had happened. I started to think back to the events of that night:

“Spike, behind you!” Spike turns around and kicks the approaching demon soilder, then while on the ground he grabs the soilder by the neck and snaps it

[angelbuffy]

“You are correct. The Hyperion is the place where we casted the spell. However, I do not think that this place would be standing. The spell was supposed to destroy everything around it.”

I knew it was gone. I didn't understand how it was gone, because by the way she was talking, EVERYTHING should be gone. Not just a hotel. I knew it when I first entered this damn place. Or maybe I just had the wrong street. It's possible, Los Angeles is big..maybe they have the same street name too. I didn't respond..just kinda walked following her. The possibility of me having the wrong street was ruled out when we turned the same one I had been on earlier. Nothing but empty space.

Illyria stopped, taking a few seconds to break the silence. I don't know what she was thinking, because her facial expressions are pretty much the same..or maybe she was always feeling the same thing. I didn't dare to ask.

“It looks like there is nothing here. A mere empty lot. But this was the place where the final battle took place.” I didn't like the way

[the_god_illyria]

"There's nothing here. Not even a clue."She was getting impatient, and so was I. This was getting us nowhere. There was nothing here. It was as if though this place never even existed. I shifted my gaze back to the street

[angelbuffy]

“There is not need for us to linger here. We need to find some answers and I think Wolfram & Hart possesses them.” When she said that all I could think of was the thorn in my side. They were my thorn, and I was pissed. Illyria, I think felt the same way. I was almost sure of it.

We walked by a couple that I hadn't even bothered to acknowledge until she said something.

“I do not understand why humans feel the need to show affection in such a way. It is as if though they need for the world to see they are together. Most interesting.” I thought about that. She, for some reason was some what right... why do we? It was a good question. Maybe I didn't know it because my last list of boyfriends weren't big on the hand holding

[the_god_illyria]

I advanced towards the vampire and picked him up punching him hard on the chest again. I could kill him quite easily, but I wanted to punish him first. I turned to look at Buffy and she seemed to be handling herself exceptionally well. As if though she was born to kill these creatures. In fact, that is exactly why she was born, and why she had these extraordinary powers. To kill the half-breeds, and destroy the demons. This is what the shell's memories told me. I understood what they slayer's duty was. It was all there in what was now my own mind

[angelbuffy]

We finished killing the demons to find the man and his girlfriend, or wife there.. staring at us. I'll admit, I thought it odd, but I was used to it. Illyria, however, was not.

“Your idiocy baffles me, human. You are full of evident stupidity for taking your companion to such hazardous vicinity. Leave now.”

I gave her a glare, as they ran away. I could still hear the weeps of the girl. I don't understand her. Okay, so she doesn't like vampires, and she saves people..yet she treats them like they are nobody. Maybe she just finds pleasure in the fight. Like a greater Faith. She turned around and started walking away. I put my stake in my pocket and followed her. I wanted to yell at the way she treated them, the way she treats people.. But I was just thankful that she was this nice. I gotta take what I can get

[the_god_illyria]

I walked on. I wanted to get out of this place and find the answers that I needed. I knew I could get back into Wolfram & Hart without any problem. However, I did not want to risk being seen by Eve and I didn’t want to be questioned any more by the firm’s pesky lawyers. But we needed to get more answers. Buffy followed behind me.

"I don't know how I'm going to get in there. They know my face, and they kicked me out last time...Well more like teleported."

I said nothing. She was right to assume these things however. Wolfram & Hart knew she was in Los Angeles and that she was looking for answers. She had been foolish enough to walk in to Wolfram & Hart and demand answers. A foolish thing to do, however, I couldn’t deny the logic in it.

"And why do you do that?" I was briefly startled by her comment. I did not understood what she meant. I turned to look at her and raised my eyebrow. But she was not finished.

"Why do you treat us like we're not worth it, and yet you save us? Why do you threat the ones that you save?"In

[angelbuffy]

"There is too much you don't understand, slayer. Things that have changed me somehow.…somehow. I am burdened by strange emotions that are not mine. Emotions that reek of importance.”Well I awaited for something more, something like a kick in the face, literally, or even a punch. Maybe a line that would be meant to bring me down. But all I got was a back turned. She started to walk away. She looked hurt..well no she didn't. But I knew she was. That's the thing with her. The emotion factor and showing them She did a good job at it, and I wanted her to teach me how she does it. I didn't know what the heck was going on. And I was sick of just the lines. I want to read between them...but she was making it so hard

[the_god_illyria]

"If I don't understand, then why don't you teach me? I know you're trying to fit in here. You have to be, after all, if you weren't..then you would be in your original form. Humans like us express our emotions. We teach each other, and learn from each other. We do it because it makes life easier."

I pondered these words for a moment. She genuinely wanted to understand. Wesley wanted to understand, but only because I wore the shell’s form, the shell’s face. Buffy, genuinely wanted to understand me. I wanted to understand myself. I looked towards the distance

[angelbuffy]

“All I am is what I am. I lived 7 lives at once. I was power and the ecstasy of death. I was god to a god. Now... I- I'm trapped... in this time and this place. I once ruled over this place with an iron fist. I had a grand army, and my voice was the law. But I was defeated, and my essence was trapped, and this shell set me free. I needed to exist so I possessed her form, her body began to deteriorate as I took over. The shell endured a slow and painful death in the arms of her lover… Wesley. And it was at that moment of her death that I came into this world. Many things happened. My army was gone, and I had nothing left. I made a deal with Wesley to stop killing if he would help me adjust to this strange, new Earth. He kept his end of the bargain, and I kept mine.I wished my splendor to be returned to me. I longed for my triumphant sway over mankind. To never die and rule completely, this has always been my reality - my definition of life. Yet, things…changed, and over time I developed many unwanted feelings. Wesley… The night he fell

[the_god_illyria]

"You talk like this world is horrible. Granted, it did take you in, and it's got pain, and suffering and feelings.. Of everything I know."

I only looked at her as she was saying these words. They echoed in my mind.

"I died, I know what it feels like to feel trapped in this world."

I looked up at her. I searched the shell’s memories, and in deed, this human’s life had expired at one point. Angel had not shown much grief then, but he had not been himself either. It was most strange. But his excitement over the news that she was alive was an obvious sign that he had cared a great deal for her. However, I did not understand the cycle of human life.

“You died…yes. I know this from the shell’s memories. And you were greatly missed. But how can one human life expire and then return while others stay gone?” I asked. I knew she did not have the answer to this question. But I wanted to understand.

"I don't know what happened with you and Wesley..but I'm glad you felt it. You should..They call it conscious here. This race

[angelbuffy]

“You died…yes. I know this from the shell’s memories. And you were greatly missed. But how can one human life expire and then return while others stay gone?”

Oh, just the process of powerful magics, and crawling out of your grave. Not a big deal. The beginning is a little scary and - Enough.

After I mentioned food, I know that she didn't acknowledge the food part, but maybe she'll understand why I do what I do..why she helps us...me.

“You have a valid point, Buffy Summers. Some things, it seems, are worth fighting for. I- I think I fight on your side because I believe this is what Wesley would have wanted.”She stopped in between there, and thought about what she had said. She concluded with Wesley. She had feelings for him, and I think she did because..well I didn't know. I'm just glad she had feelings. Honestly, I shouldn't be. She told me that she pretty much murdered this girl out of selfishness.. But I wanted to give her a chance, redemption..it's a big thing. And by the way she talked, she sounded like she was feeling

[the_god_illyria]

"Maybe you should because it's what you want? I mean, if you're stuck here, you might as well make friends.. Fight the good fight, and feel good about it. I think that is what Wesley would want. To know that he left this world with a close enough line of good and evil to keep us going."

I swallowed her words. Fight the good fight. Wesley had said those very words to me many times in an effort to make me understand things that I wasn’t meant to understand or didn’t bother to make the effort to. Glanced at her and oddly enough I felt the corners of my lips curl slightly forming a small smile.

"Los Angeles isn't much without it's Champion."

“When your leader has fallen, difficult situations are inevitable. We stand firm with or without Angel, for the time being. But we must find him soon. I must find him. I will not let him rot in that hell dimension! We need to make haste, Buffy. Wolfram & Hart is just up ahead.”

As soon as I said these words I noticed a dark figure up ahead. Buffy had noticed it as well. More violence,

[angelbuffy]

I actually saw a smile form on her lips. It's a good thing, because I think she got some sort of hummanity out of this conversation. She might need it after I saw that darkened figure blocking our way to Wolfram and Hart. It looked to me like a troll. And it's sad that I think that something is a troll.. Yep, I've been a vampire slayer for too long...or I've been away from it for too long. Withdrawl, yes that's it.

“When your leader has fallen, difficult situations are inevitable. We stand firm with or without Angel, for the time being. But we must find him soon. I must find him. I will not let him rot in that hell dimension! We need to make haste, Buffy. Wolfram & Hart is just up ahead.”Woah, who called Angel my leader? I just called him the guy that I care for, and happens to be in charge of the 'eliminate evil here.' We both needed to get him out. Even if it meant beating up everyone of those pesky lawyers. Not that I could, considering the technology that they had there. Yes me, old fashioned gal'. Give me a wooden

[the_god_illyria]

The demon secreted a foul smell. It was repugnant. It coated his whole body emanated from his very pores. This creature was beyond filthy. I frowned and cocked my head.

"What soap do you use? I've got to make a personal note to put those guys out of business."This seemed to infuriate the demon even more as it threw the nearest object towards us, or towards Buffy to be more precise. She managed to dodge the oncoming trash can as it hit the ground spilling its odiferous contents all around the ground. The filthy demon began to charge at us. I frowned at him and as he got from within inches of me I grabbed it by the arms and sent him towards a near by wall. I was truly disgusted by the demons smelled. It was truly appalling