Endings and new beginnings
Another year comes to an end. Indeed this year has been one of new beginnings and old things coming to an end. My parents are moving out of the house where I spent most of my child hood. So many memories within those walls. I feel a sadness to leave it behind although most of the feeling of home has disappeared for me since I moved out. Perhaps that makes it less of a trauma now. But with the sadness there is also a feeling of relief. To finally cut the ties to that life and move on to a more promising, happier life. I have started that journey already. Learning to se and appreciate the small wonders of everyday things. Finding joy in the now. At times I can say I have even felt ecstatic and happy even and felt some joy most days recently. I have become a bit more confident and sociable although I still have to work on that. My relationship with myself has become one of friendship and love rather than the more or less constant battles that were going on within me. I treat myself better these days and try to avoid being to hard on myself. After all if it is something I would never say to a friend then I shouldn’t say it to myself either. Challenging myself has been an important part of gaining self confidence and I definitely need to keep doing that, and do it more often even. And when having faced a challenge reward myself regardless of how it went just as long as I gave it an honest try.
I'm listening to a lovely waltz sung by Sofia Karlsson. It's been playing on repeat quite a few times (it's available on her myspace page by the way http://www.myspace.com/sofiakarlsson and is called "Jag har drömt") . It's times like these I really wish I had someone I was really in love with so that we could dance close and stare deep into each others eyes. I have been dancing pretty much non stop for about 6 hour today though :) So now I'm tired but oh so happy. Although I got to dance quite a lot today and with some pretty cute guys even not just the old men that there usually is an abundance of. Although they were all nice and entertaining and I had a blast I did yet again catch myself wishing I was dancing with someone else, just don't know yet who that someone else is yet. Ah well, I feel I'm moving closer and closer to finding out :) Maybe just wishful thinking but who cares.
Happy new year everybody!
I'm listening to a lovely waltz sung by Sofia Karlsson. It's been playing on repeat quite a few times (it's available on her myspace page by the way http://www.myspace.com/sofiakarlsson and is called "Jag har drömt") . It's times like these I really wish I had someone I was really in love with so that we could dance close and stare deep into each others eyes. I have been dancing pretty much non stop for about 6 hour today though :) So now I'm tired but oh so happy. Although I got to dance quite a lot today and with some pretty cute guys even not just the old men that there usually is an abundance of. Although they were all nice and entertaining and I had a blast I did yet again catch myself wishing I was dancing with someone else, just don't know yet who that someone else is yet. Ah well, I feel I'm moving closer and closer to finding out :) Maybe just wishful thinking but who cares.
Happy new year everybody!