No Place
I don't believe I belong here. Every time I think about Buena it brings tears, anger, and so many other emotions to my heart. Last week for Spring break I didn't even come back to my daddy's because I didn't want to be here with them... because I don't belong now. Ever since my sister moved in... I haven't belonged. Not that she gets more attention or anything but everything about her and the house now just repulses me away, even the school. The school I hate.
My grandma reminded me that there is the High School at Moorpark College... I wouldn't want to go to NP because I don't belong there anymore either, and I don't really want to stay here at a school where I don't belong and in a place where, even though my heart terribly desires to stay here, it pushes me away.
I don't know what my problem is, but what I know is that it's killing me right now... I need to talk to someone again... sort out my mind... but I don't know, if when the time came, I would make the right decision in fear of hurting everyone who I hold dear to me.
I don't want to go... but something is pulling me away, even pushing me... Why is it doing this? Why?
I need help...
My grandma reminded me that there is the High School at Moorpark College... I wouldn't want to go to NP because I don't belong there anymore either, and I don't really want to stay here at a school where I don't belong and in a place where, even though my heart terribly desires to stay here, it pushes me away.
I don't know what my problem is, but what I know is that it's killing me right now... I need to talk to someone again... sort out my mind... but I don't know, if when the time came, I would make the right decision in fear of hurting everyone who I hold dear to me.
I don't want to go... but something is pulling me away, even pushing me... Why is it doing this? Why?
I need help...