My Day
So I was asked to come in early today,, was interesting to say the least. Apparently the company I work for holds its US base in New Jersey and there si potential for some openings at that office. I do not even know that I will stay with this company, though I really need to, more-less even consider moving that far away from my children and friends. But in some ways it is a temptation, the idea of a new start with a great job in a new town.
I am really over allot of things here, and I am tired of being ignored or just strung along in some of my situations. I have my business here, and I have had some success in that lately. I barely see my kids, though I wish I did more often, but that does not seem like it will change anytime in the immediate future due to scheduling.
So thats where I am at, I can apply to go there at some point after training and some field time, so it is a future opportunity. Though it is not a guaranteed opportunity. Or I can stay here and see where things go locally.. I have another option to go to another company with better pay if I passed their interview, but I just came into the current job, and I am not sure how that will reflect on my resume. Life is so weird lately. For about 18 months I sat stagnant waiting for something to happen and not knowing how to move forward. One day things started to change and now I am faced with options and the confusion of not knowing where to go. I am seeing things I know I should change in my personal and professional life but I am afraid to let go of, and others I have no clue if I even want to let go of. Its funny how when you are at the bottom all you can think about is getting back up, then when you start to get back up all you can think about is how to keep from hitting bottom again. It is also strange how everything someone thinks they want really might not be what they want after all, and what they really want will always be just beyond their reach.
I am really over allot of things here, and I am tired of being ignored or just strung along in some of my situations. I have my business here, and I have had some success in that lately. I barely see my kids, though I wish I did more often, but that does not seem like it will change anytime in the immediate future due to scheduling.
So thats where I am at, I can apply to go there at some point after training and some field time, so it is a future opportunity. Though it is not a guaranteed opportunity. Or I can stay here and see where things go locally.. I have another option to go to another company with better pay if I passed their interview, but I just came into the current job, and I am not sure how that will reflect on my resume. Life is so weird lately. For about 18 months I sat stagnant waiting for something to happen and not knowing how to move forward. One day things started to change and now I am faced with options and the confusion of not knowing where to go. I am seeing things I know I should change in my personal and professional life but I am afraid to let go of, and others I have no clue if I even want to let go of. Its funny how when you are at the bottom all you can think about is getting back up, then when you start to get back up all you can think about is how to keep from hitting bottom again. It is also strange how everything someone thinks they want really might not be what they want after all, and what they really want will always be just beyond their reach.