My Milestone
although i had already decided some weeks back, I decided to still write it down anyway, a document of my life's milestone. I have let go and have let go entirely since I had the "talking out" conversation with him. I am ready to start a fresh start a new. N i'm very happy to say that. I'm ready for new possibilities. I'm ready to discover the other wonderful trees that i may stumble upon as i walk my life from now. :)
This has been a good and wonderful experience. Packed with ups and downs, happiness and sadness. It all part of life that we experience, Some ppl maybe lucky enough not to experience the breakup like i did, some ppl like me r also lucky enough to experience it, learn from it and move on. I do not regret anything. It had been a wonderful experience and i'm glad that in the end we did still end at a good note and remained friends. Because whether i want it or not, all these had been part of my life. I want to embrace it n then look back at it now n in the future to say "yes, it was a lovely memory". The sweet feeling of 1st love. :) 1st loves are something which ppl will nv forget in their lives. I dont want it be be like a black streak staining my memory. I'm glad I can now look back n remember the good times we have had and also embrace the reasons why it did not work out. To be honest, I held hopes but i also know that its difficult for us. I was just trying hard n hoping hard for it to work so that i do not need to experience break up. I refused to look at the cracks and the difficulties we had although i know very well everyone could see. Its like choosing to close one eye so that the worst does not happen as long as u dont poke at it.
The best lesson i have learnt from this is how to let go. To bring the chinese saying of "na de qi, fang de xia" to life. When i was more navie, I thought that was beyond my capabilities. How do you pick urself up after having plummet down? But this experience gave me new strength and understanding of myself and my capabilities. Of course support from my family and friends were really important, I would not have done it without them. Ppl change with experience, i changed for the better. I would thank him for letting me earn this valuable lesson because it was the only way i would have learnt. Hard lesson but not one that the new me cannot take :) I think we might have learnt some lessons from each other haha. Although I would have liked to anlaysed where we went wrong n teach each other how to improve, i dont think i have done that. I was just too afriad to lose last time so i didnt say. That was one of the big problems. Something i figured out myself and will take note in future.
I'm very proud of myself. I wondered if i have taken letting go to its epitome haha. Welcome me to the forest my darlings. I have left my nursery with 1 tree behind. ^_^
This has been a good and wonderful experience. Packed with ups and downs, happiness and sadness. It all part of life that we experience, Some ppl maybe lucky enough not to experience the breakup like i did, some ppl like me r also lucky enough to experience it, learn from it and move on. I do not regret anything. It had been a wonderful experience and i'm glad that in the end we did still end at a good note and remained friends. Because whether i want it or not, all these had been part of my life. I want to embrace it n then look back at it now n in the future to say "yes, it was a lovely memory". The sweet feeling of 1st love. :) 1st loves are something which ppl will nv forget in their lives. I dont want it be be like a black streak staining my memory. I'm glad I can now look back n remember the good times we have had and also embrace the reasons why it did not work out. To be honest, I held hopes but i also know that its difficult for us. I was just trying hard n hoping hard for it to work so that i do not need to experience break up. I refused to look at the cracks and the difficulties we had although i know very well everyone could see. Its like choosing to close one eye so that the worst does not happen as long as u dont poke at it.
The best lesson i have learnt from this is how to let go. To bring the chinese saying of "na de qi, fang de xia" to life. When i was more navie, I thought that was beyond my capabilities. How do you pick urself up after having plummet down? But this experience gave me new strength and understanding of myself and my capabilities. Of course support from my family and friends were really important, I would not have done it without them. Ppl change with experience, i changed for the better. I would thank him for letting me earn this valuable lesson because it was the only way i would have learnt. Hard lesson but not one that the new me cannot take :) I think we might have learnt some lessons from each other haha. Although I would have liked to anlaysed where we went wrong n teach each other how to improve, i dont think i have done that. I was just too afriad to lose last time so i didnt say. That was one of the big problems. Something i figured out myself and will take note in future.
I'm very proud of myself. I wondered if i have taken letting go to its epitome haha. Welcome me to the forest my darlings. I have left my nursery with 1 tree behind. ^_^