you created this
i told kevin yesterday that i don't want to talk to him anymore. after his most recent comments... i'm done.
why was i planning to send christmas and birthday presents to someone that wouldn't do the same for me?
that didn't do the same for me even when we were together?
who are you when you realize that a decade of your life has been a waste?
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i am so glad i found Sean. otherwise i'd have no idea what love is supposed to look like. i live with absolute certainty that i am loved more than anything, exactly the way i am, in a healthy and mutually supportive way. no anxiety for what the future holds. no fear of abandonment.
i'm not pouring my love and affection into a black hole.
not anymore.
i have done it for ten years. i will not give one ounce of love to anyone that doesn't deserve it.
so much of it has been used up already on greedy, thoughtless hearts...
why was i planning to send christmas and birthday presents to someone that wouldn't do the same for me?
that didn't do the same for me even when we were together?
who are you when you realize that a decade of your life has been a waste?
***
i am so glad i found Sean. otherwise i'd have no idea what love is supposed to look like. i live with absolute certainty that i am loved more than anything, exactly the way i am, in a healthy and mutually supportive way. no anxiety for what the future holds. no fear of abandonment.
i'm not pouring my love and affection into a black hole.
not anymore.
i have done it for ten years. i will not give one ounce of love to anyone that doesn't deserve it.
so much of it has been used up already on greedy, thoughtless hearts...