Headspaces are stupid and my Tumblr crashes my internet.
I don’t even know how to explain my headspace right now. Sean has cancer. Fucking cancer. That’s just... he’s one of the nicest guys in the world, and he’s dealing with that?! It just doesn’t seem fair. It’s not right, it’s not fair and it makes me want to scream when I think about it too hard. Getting cancer is like one of my worst nightmares and he’s living it?! Sean has more strength in his pinky than I do in my whole body for fighting that, and recording a new album and touring, and just... dealing with people. I’d be holed up in my bed hiding for sure.
My social anxiety’s getting worse. Nearly went into full panic attack mode in the kitchen at work the other day. We were having a farewell morning tea, and I was fine during the speeches when Jayde was next to me, but then I turned around and she wasn’t there, and I was surrounded by the people from the other teams on our floor and was so close to losing it, it was insane.
We’ve got 4 new starters at work and I’ve helped training the new guy on our team at work. Actually I think I’ve had a hand in training 3 out of the 4 newbies. It’s nice to know that James trusts me enough to get him all set up to go. He started taking calls on Thursday afternoon, poor thing, we got slammed, but he seemed to do okay.
Cat lost her baby. I don’t even... I feel bad (Catherine and I had a word vomit over this the other week) that she lost it, but she did tell all of her facebook (and his) when she was something like 9 weeks. There’s a reason the doctor’s tell you to wait until you’re 12 weeks. I like to think she would have stepped up to the challenge of being a mom, but for now, that remains a mystery.
Jamie has a wedding date. I knew he was engaged. I knew that. I thought I was over it, but seeing that he has a freaking WEDDING DATE?! That was a punch in the gut I wasn’t expecting. I didn’t really... I knew they had a date for their engagement party, but their freaking wedding?! I just... I wanna cry. I hate this week.